➤ Final Month | complete

ー🎓Day 264

May 10, 2022
10:33 pm

Dear Reader,

So, my parents and I managed to finish all the requirements for my operation that was suppsoedly this Thursday

We spent nearly 8k pesos if I'm not mistaken, the swab test alone was 2,500 pesos, multiply it with 2 then its 5k pesos

All of that for absolute nothing because the doctor said that I need to have a biopsy first as pushing through with the operation could cause more problems

They are suspecting that the big mass inside my right boob is cancerous and therefore needed biopsy so they could plan how to operate it

If worse comes to worse, they'd be forced to take out the entirety of my right boob and put me under chemotherapy

I would very much rather die than have my parents suffer financially with trying to keep me alive but I know damn well they won't allow that

I just hope it isn't cancerous like the first time I got operated with this stupid breast mass

Like why should it have to be me? Why not someone else? I'm only 18 for goodness sake, I still want to live my life, travel around the world and meet my online friends personally

So why did life have to give such burdens to me at this age? I'm only 18 yet I've went through a lot already, incubated at birth, 1st major operation in 6th grade, 2nd major operation during summer before 10th grade

Why me? I can handle this, yes, but financially speaking? No, we can't, its hard being at a tight budget already and having nearly 8k go to waste today

That amount of money could buy us food for a few weeks more, but its all gone and wasted today because of that stupid thing

If we knew that I'd have to do biopsy either way, I would have chosen that first thing last week instead of rushing the operation

Anyway, that's about it! Good night/good evening/good morning/good afternoon, my dear Galaxies!

-Signed by,
Moon / Elisa🌙
10:43

PS. I finished 4 assignments today so yay I guess