Even Flow{ON HOLD}

Chapter 28

Luke's pov
"Tell me Luke,why are you here?"Eddie convinced me to talk to a therapist about my trauma.I was worrying him as well as Stone,Mike,and Jeff."because...I have some trauma from my parents...a-and it's causing me to lose sleep somet-"I sighed,"all the time."I continued.my therapist,Winnie Lesser,nodded as she wrote down what I said."what caused this trauma?"she asked in a calm tone,I looked down at the carpeted floor."they...kicked me out of the house when I was 18,they...found out in gay and just...got really mad."I began to tear up,"so I ran,but no matter how far away I was from them...it's almost as if they're haunting me in my nightmares."i continued.

"So your trauma is the day your parents kicked you out."she said,I nodded."I tried hiding them from Eddie,my boyfriend.but after I moved in with him they got worse and worse,which is why I'm here."I added,"what happens in these nightmares?"she asked.I gulped,looking down at my hands as my legged bounced up and down."at first...they were mainly about my parents either kicking me out or finding me and hurting me."I began to explain,she wrote that down."now what do they turn into?"she asked in a calm voice,I looked at her.

"A-At first...it's completely normal,almost as if I'm finally having a dream.I'm making lunch and Eddie's on the couch,strumming his guitar.then we get a frantic knock on the door,Eddie says he'll get it but I insist that I should get it and that he can eat lunch now since it's ready.so he puts his guitar to the side,and gives me a quick kiss before I answer the door.I open it,and what do I see?my fucking parents.my eyes widen,and I'm frozen in fear.almost as if my feet are stuck to the ground and the air is getting colder,I don't speak at all.my mom is happen that she found me,she tries to hug me but I snap out of it and push her away.meanwhile my dad's holding a flyer for a fucking conversion camp,and he says that now that they found me I can go to it."

A tear rolled down my cheek,"and then Eddie steps in.my parents get really mad,asking who he was.Eddie grabs me away from my mom,protectively putting me behind him.he yells at them,telling them that he's my boyfriend and that if he doesn't leave he'll call the cops.that's when my dad snapped,he grabbed Eddie and punched him.I tried to save Eddie from being beaten to death,but my mom...she grabs me and drags me away from Eddie,I'm crying and kicking and screaming as everything around me goes black.i always wake up in tears,shaking and crying."I buried my face in my hands and sobbed.

"I don't want to lose Eddie Ms.Lesser,he's my whole world.I know it's not right to love him,but I do love him."i said,taking my hands off my face."it's understandable to feel this way Luke,and I'm not judging you in any way."she assured me,"we're all out of time,but before you go allow me to suggest something."she said."what is it?"I asked,"this normally works on PTSD patients,but in your case it might just work.I want you to bring Eddie in for our next session,I have a little group therapy idea that might just work.it won't cure you necessarily,but it's a breathing exercise that'll help you."she explained."thank you Ms.Lesser,this was actually nice."i said,she smiled.

I left her office and made my way to the waiting room.Eddie was sitting on one of the chairs,reading an MTV magazine that was there,I sat next to him and kissed his cheek.his head perked up and he turned it,only to smile when he saw me."baby!"he cheered,I giggled as he pecked my cheek with kisses."how was it?are you feeling ok?"he asked,holding my hands."it was actually pretty good.she wants me to come back,and she wants me to bring you in."I replied,he tilted his head in confusion."bring me in?why?"he asked,"she wants to try a little couple therapy exercise."I replied."she said that it's a breathing exercise that'll help me out."I explained,"well,if it'll help my sunshine then I'll do it!"he said.I smiled,"now come on,I'm starving."he said as he grabbed my hand.