Reason to Live (Amourshipping)

Chapter 5 - Nightmare or Reality?

Ash's POV

Time flew by as a water in a river. While May was happy in her new home, I suspect that she's that comfortable here in Kalos only because of Drew, I wasn't still quite in my skin and not quite ready to accept the fact that here is my new home. I still considered our old house in Kanto as my only home and Diantha's house only as a place where I'm just staying because I have nowhere to go.

Five months past, but nothing major happened, May and Drew weren't dating, but everybody thinks they do, because how close they are. May confessed to me that she really loves Drew, but she's super cautious about dating him, because, according to her words, it doesn't feel right to date him, while he doesn't even know who she is. May is also, for some reason, afraid to introduce Drew to Diantha. I kinda betrayed May, and not introduced Drew, but talked about him with Diantha. She really doesn't mind, she said that she's not our mom and she don't want to interfere in our lives. I guess that May is scared about Drew's reaction rather than Diantha's. May also promised me that once Drew knows everything, she's gonna tell him about the fact that she's living in a house with the Kalos Champion. Until now, she was successful keeping it a secret.

On the other hand, Gary and Misty got together and are dating for some time already. One thing I noticed, is a massive change in Gary's character. He's no longer a fuckboy who hits on every girl in his sight, he's far more mature and it's obvious that both Misty and Gary are really happy together. Even May noticed that, and is far more comfortable around Gary, too thinking that he had matured and is now a nice guy.

As far as I'm concerned, I'm still playing strong in front of my sister and providing her a support any time she needs, but to tell the truth, I'd like to cry alongside her. To this time, the only ones who saw me cry were Pikachu and Lucario, and that was the only time I cried, all the other times when dark thoughts flooded my mind, I was able to suppress my feelings. I was sad and depressed, but haven't cried, because every time the depression invades my mind, I remind myself a words my dad used to say that the Aura Guardian must be strong and should not cry. Yes, I was quite a cry baby when I was a kid... But that times are long gone.

Both me and May of course stayed alert and prepared to deliver as Aura Guardian and Aura Princess. Thankfully, every time someone disturbed the peace of nature, it was a single working hunter, similar to the one I encountered in a case of that shiny Rapidash, who by the way came to visit us few times with her Ponytas. There were no witnesses and no problems for us.

It was funny when Diantha saw May's disguise from Aura for the first time, because when our dad was teaching us how to keep our identity a secret, it was right after we saw Diantha taking the Kalos Champion title in TV, so May's created a disguise that was reminding Diantha's white costume in which she won the Kalos Champion title. And May didn't feel a need to change it, so her disguise looks like one of Diantha's clothes. They even posed in front of mirror together, Diantha wearing her white costume and May in her Aura Princess appearance, taking pictures together.

I have quite a lot of friends, but my love life isn't very rich. I mean, May persuaded me to try dating Dawn. That was the time I understood what May meant. Dawn told me a lot of things about her, but I couldn't tell her anything about me, because I was afraid to give away my identity. Our relationship reached a point where we're pals, buddies, like a brother and sister, simply trustworthy friends, rather than a couple... Anyway, the question of us becoming a couple stayed opened. And that was pretty much the biggest chapter in my love life. I hope that one day I'll find a girlfriend, but now I'm not feeling a need to have one, so I'm not actively searching.

Yes, there's one major thing that happened. I began having a weird dream, the same dream again and again, but each time it was longer. It was strange... Every time I was feeling awake, but I was actually dreaming, there was darkness all around me and after some time, I began hearing something, it was a cry or scream... Every time I got the dream, the cry was longer and louder, but I haven't figured it out what it is, or what it means.