Lost Soul ☯︎︎ (ATEEZ AU) Yunho x Reader

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You were sitting on your hammock in your cabin as you were swinging back and forth on it as the short muscular male looked at you. "So, tell me more, get whatever on your chest off." He said with a small but genuine smile and you returned one back. "Right..." You took a deep breath as you closed your eyes. You released the air from your body as you slowly opened your eyes and looked at Changbin.

"Basically, I'm confused." You started off as you threw yourself onto your hammock. "Why?" You heard Changbin ask. "It's just," You sighed. "It's just before I ran away and hid on this ship my mother had told me that some village is after me, but before she could tell me, that village arrived." You spoke quickly. "They have wanted posters of me and such a huge reward for me," You then sat up and looked at him with tears on the blink of falling out.

"I just want to know why, why do they want me?! I don't even remember doing anything bad!" You quickly stood up as you began to pace around your room. "What did I do!? I can barely remember my past! I can barely even remember things that frequently happen!" Tears began to flow out and roll down your face as some fell to the floor.

"Whatever happened to me, I need to know! My mother, Chae Rin, told me that I got hit by something as I was playing on the seashore with my friend and lost all of my memories, so, she tried her best to make more and better memories, but I feel as if she's lying to me," You sobbed the last part as you looked at the locket around your neck. "Listen here, lad..."

He stood up as he grabbed you by the shoulders. "First of all, you cry like a woman, you need to man up and start being brave, you need to show no weakness," His words stung you, but then again, they don't think of female Ji Ah, they only know the male Ji Ah. "And secondly, memories come back eventually, just give it some time, it may take months, maybe even years, but that doesn't mean they'll be lost forever, you just need something from your past to bring them back. I promise." He rubbed your shoulders before bringing you into a hug.

You sighed as you let yourself be engulfed in his warmth. "I guess you're right," You huffed, before you opened your mouth to say something else but you heard a light knocking on your door. Changbin broke off of you as you turned towards the door. "Who is it?" You called as you began to wipe away your tears. "It's San, can I come in?" You heard him say as his voice was soft. You simply said a yes as he opened the door and made his way inside. He looked up as his face changed to a shocked one. "Changbin? What are you doing here?" He walked towards the both of you.

San held your wrist as he glared at the younger male. "He had to get some stuff off of his chest so I let him talk to me because I understand where he's coming from." He said. San looked at you questionably as if he was trying to ask if he's telling the truth. You nodded your head. San sighed as he closed his eyes before letting go of you. "Why? Is something wrong?" Changbin asked as he crossed his arms. "N-No, there's nothing wrong, just..nevermind."

He turned to you. "Can we talk...privately?" He said, emphasizing the privately part as he had that sad/worried but emotionless face. "Why? Is something wrong hyung?" You asked. He glared over his shoulder at Changbin which was crossing his arms as he looked at the both of you.

"I'm still here, ya know?" He said. "I know, you think you can leave so I can talk to Ji Ah, alone?" He asked as he turned around fully to him. Changbin furrowed his eyebrows. "Sure, I'll be talking with Jongho if you need anything from me," He said as he began to walk towards the door as he patted your shoulder before he gave a quick smile and left, closing the door behind him.

You looked at San who was sitting at your desk now before you walked towards him. "What's the matter, San?" He looked at you. "What did you tell him?" He asked you. "I just told him how I want to remember my childhood again and also know why whoever is after me wants me for whatever." You shrug as you watch San's expression relax and soften. "Why didn't you come to me?" He sighed as he raised an eyebrow.

"If anyone, Changbin isn't the type to be helpful when it comes to feelings and stuff like that." San said, making you furrow your eyebrows. "Why is that?" You asked. San looked you in your eyes with that same blank expression, it scares you sometimes. "He has his past, but he never told anyone because he rather not remember his past." San said.

You slowly nod your head as you look around. San placed his hand on your shoulder, making you look back at him. His eyes had worry in them. "Ji Ah, you can come to me whenever you need something, alright?" His face was sad, why is he sad? "Okay." You said before he brought you in a tight hug. "But Ji Ah," He said as he placed his head on yours. "Yes?" You listened to his steady heartbeat in your ear. "You're memories will most likely come back, I was looking at some of Yeosang's books he had lended me." He said.

"Hey, San?" He hummed as he waited for you to continue speaking. "You think I can read those books?" You asked. San broke the hug as he looked you in the eyes. "Why? Do you want to know when they may come back? I can just tell-" You cut him off. "I just wanna see for myself, ya know?" You said. He slowly nodded his head as his face turned to a more serious one.

"Understandable. But you're going to have to ask Yeosang himself." He said. You looked at him in disbelief. He's not serious, right? Me, asking another crew mate!? Does he think that's going to be- "Even though he wouldn't mind you using them," He interrupted your train of thought. "He would like to meet you." He finished. "He. Wants to meet. Me?" You said over a bit exaggeratedly. He simply nodded his head. You opened your mouth to speak, but there was another knock on your door. "Why is everyone coming to my cabin today?" You groaned.

San chuckled before he yelled for whoever to come in. The door creaked open exposing a purple haired boy with emerald green eyes. "San-ie! Ji Ah! Dinner is ready!" He said. "Okay, thanks Wooyoung." San replied. Wooyoung nodded his head before he left, closing the door behind him. "So, what were you going to say?" San said as you looked back at him, sighing. "Nothing..." You walked past him to your desk as you sat down.

"Aren't you eating?" You shook your head no. "Why not?" He asked as he walked towards you. "I suddenly lost my appetite." You heard San groan before he grabbed you and dragged you out of your cabin as you saw all of the crew eating on the main deck laughing and talking to one another as you were still being dragged all the way to the galley. Once you both got inside he had sat you down. "You're eating, and that's finally. Stop acting so stubborn, I swear, you females are the most difficult to deal with!" He groaned. You then heard something fall to the ground.

"Wait...Ji Ah's a female?!"