Letters I wrote you

Thirty-four

Well seeing that it isn't Saturday yet

You're probably wondering what's happened.

Well this letter will be a longer then usual so sit down comfortably wherever you are.

So Nora wanted me to meet Miles but she didn't want it to be any kind of family reunion 'cause first of all, a family meeting without a "family" would have been difficult to explain, she hasn't told him about that. And second of all he isn't the sort of guy to go to a family meeting or anything of the sort. So instead, she told him it was a small evening with two friends that are dating kind of thing, that sounds pretty much like a double date to me. You know what that means right, I had to find myself a date. Nora begged me to do it and I just can't refuse her anything after all she's done for me, so I just had to find myself a date, and I couldn't just ask Tim, he was to important for me to do that kind of thing, I don't want there to be anything between us for the moment, I don't know what I want yet.

So last week my "finding a false date" mission begone. I couldn't just ask anyone, it had to be someone that would accept to be my pretend date and I couldn't go around asking everyone I knew, I'm quite sure it would have been awkward if I had.

Around the middle of the week I remembered about an old college of mine. We had been good friends and I should have talked with him earlier. I shouldn't have isolated myself like I had, staying only with Nora and Tim. So I called him and apologized about it, he told me it didn't matter at least I had called him. We planed to meet up on Thursday.

I had forgot how nice it was to hang out with different people, I really should get back in touch with some of my old friends. I never should have abandoned them in the first place. At least the ones that had actually cared. Some had tried to call me after .... you know what happened.... But I had ignored their calls. I actually feel quite bad about that right now, even if at that moment I hadn't actually cared. Luckily Josh wasn't indiscreet, cause I wouldn't have been able to answer his questions. I'm not ready to speek about it yet.

We talked so much to catch up the lost time that I completely forgot to ask him about the false date. It was only when he had turned the corner of the street that I remembered about it. Luckily he wasn't too far down so I caught him up easily. I explained the project and he accepted gladly.

So after finding some nice clothing I would be all set for Saturday evening.

The problem came after.

I came home, and told Nora that I had found a "date" for Saturday, she was glad the plan was working out well.

The problem was Tim. I have no Idea what got into him but he started ignoring me. Now he doesn't even bother to look at me. I just can't figure out why, I haven't done anything to offend him, have I?

I can't remember anything that could have. Why is he doing this? It hurts, I thought that we where friends and that we could trust each other enough to deal with a problem if we had one. It isn't fair of him to do this. My hopes where that he was just having a bad day but he's still doing anything he can to avoid me.

It just frustrates me can't he just explain what's bothering him?

What's so hard in that, hum?

-Jane