pogue life and love - y/n and jj // outer banks // jj x reader

chapter 16 - flashbacks

- flashback -
He's starting to get aggressive. When I forget a small simple thing, he would yell at me or even hit me. But I'm too scared to break up with him, in case he hurts me... badly. I'm gonna give him a few more days to get better and if he doesn't, I'm going to try break up with him.
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I talked to Rafe and told him about how I'm feeling. Rafe couldn't stop apologising and he tried to get better. He was doing many things differently. I could tell he was scared to lose me.
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A few days later, Rafe and I were at a Kook party. So far, we were having a lot of fun. Rafe went to get me a drink and I just waited on the couch, scrolling through my phone. 

It's been 20 minutes and Rafe still isn't back. I'm gonna go look for him.

I wander through the huge mansion, trying to find Rafe. I try to move through the all the crowds without being squashed by dancing couples.

I end up walking up the staircase to the quiet hallways upstairs. I knock on every door I pass, calling out for Rafe. I open a few of them, interrupting many couples make out-sessions.

I make it to the last door in the hallway and knock on it, but there's no answer. I knock on it again. Still no answer. I lightly roll my eyes then open the door.

My heart immediately drops. Tears fill my eyes and I feel like I'm about to throw up.

Inside the room is

Rafe.

Kissing.

Another girl.

All the water in my eyes drips down my cheeks.

Rafe sees me standing in the doorway. His face immediately drops.

"Y/n." Rafe speaks.

Before he can say anything else, I run away and back down the stairs. The tears still falling down my cheeks, I rush out of the house. I hear Rafe calling after me, but I don't listen. I just keep walking.

"Y/n. Y/n, stop." Rafe grabs my arm and stops me.

"Don't touch me!" I yell, pushing him backwards.

He looks down at me sadly. I can see light water appearing in his eyes. I turn around and start to walk off again.

"Y/n, please don't leave!" Rafe shouts. I stop in my tracks. I turn back to him slowly.

"I don't wanna talk to you. I never even wanna see your face again." I state.

"I know. I know you don't! Okay? Just please let me explain! Please."  Rafe begs.

"No! I'm not gonna let you explain, Rafe! I don't care about what you have to say! I don't. There's no explanation. You cheated on me. You can't expect me to just sit here and be okay with it! If you really think that, then you're crazy. You would be completely insane if you expected me to be okay with you making out with another girl behind my back!" I shout, slowly walking closer to him. "I never want to see again. We're over."

I begin walking away again. Rafe continues shouting my name, wanting me to come back. I completely ignore him and run home, tears still falling my from my eyes.
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- present time -
Rafe slaps me across the face. I feel my cheek start to throb. "How do you like that? Who's the bitch now? Who's the bitch now, huh?"

My anger becomes unbearable. I push him backwards so hard, that he almost falls to the ground.

"Leave us alone." I order through my teeth.