HELP ME!

Chapter 13

Jason sat on the couch next to me, and Tommy was next to him, talking like he always did to new people

"I didn't know your brother was this old, I haven't met him yet" he says, and I think for a moment, I didn't realise we haven't been friends in a long time, wow my life has gone downhill

"Y..yeah.. he is almost 4 tho"

"Wow. Ok... that's Cool" he says, looking around my house , and he says
"Shall we watch a movie? Like we use to?" 

"O...oh, ok, what movie?" I said, as tommy comes and sits on my leg, it hurt but he like it on my lap, and I'm worthless so it didn't matter what I want

"What about a Disney movie?cause then Tommy can watch it too" He says, looking at me, and I look at Tommy and he nods, smiling

We then play Aladdin

We watch it and near the end I'm almost fully sleep, leaning over, my head resting on Jason's shoulder ,

I don't know if I can even trust that he won't do anything, but I'm extremely tired
And I fall asleep on his shoulder

Couple hours later

I wake up, and jump up when I felt a arm around my shoulder , pulling away and Jason wakes up suddenly

"Hey are you ok?"

"Y...you a..should go..." I say, I'm so stupid

"What?"

"Y...you need to go"

"Why?!" He says ,

"Y...y..you can't stay"

"What is going on?"
He reaches out to me and I flinch away

He sees this and gets up,grabbing his jacket and storming off, slamming the door behind him

I start crying, trying to stop myself but I couldn't

30 minutes later

I clean up my bloody wrists , and change into a softener shirt that had long sleeves , to cover the cuts up

I hate myself for putting tommy in that situation, he could of got seriously hurt, and he wouldn't even understand, I'm so selfish and stupid

I walk downstairs to then make Tommy food, I feel miserable, I don't know if I want ,or even deserve to be alive anymore, I'm so stupid

I make Tommy food and I give it too him

I don't need any more , I haven't eaten in a couple weeks , and I then wrap my hand to help the burn I have on the back of it

My old burn is healed better , but it still is kinda sore when I touch it, but I have to just get over it

I realise I should probably do something good for Tommy and I sit by him

"Hey buddy, do you wanna go to the big park tomorrow? Near Rebecca house?"

"Really?!" His face lights up and he jumps up,but his food falls on the floor

He freezes up and he tears up

"Hey it's ok, don't worry"
I pick him up and holds him close, and he starts to gently sob

"I...I..I'm sorry, I m..mess up" he whimpers

I feel so bad
"Hey Tommy, you're ok, it's ok, you didn't met up, it's fine" I say, and clean up the mess with him on my waist

He calms down and I take him upstairs to go to sleep as it is late

After getting ready, we fall asleep, and I slowly pass out

Hours later

I woke up feeling someone crawling over me, for a moment I thought it was tommy but then I realise he is in his cot, and then I feel my sleep pants I have get pulled down, and I try and get away , the back of my black hoodie gets grabbed, I try and wriggle away but my dad enters e again, and I scream out, I then try and shove him off,

He just goes even harder , I try and fight again, he just shoved my head down into my thin mattress

I have no choice and I try and wait until it's over, and I just look at the paint on the wall that's chipping

After what felt like ages my dad finished inside me , he relaxes , and stands up

I turn over, trying to cover my body from him again and i my dad is just looking down at me

"H..h..how was your Date?" I say, trying to distract him so he didn't do anything else,

"Fine, it's whatever, Seeing her tomorrow, so  you better clean my room Faggot"
He kicks me in the stomach, laughs as he walked out of the room

I cried as I fell asleep

After what felt like a couple minutes, I get pulled out of my bed,and I try and jump up, but my dad is holding my ankles and he dragged me out of the room, and then grabs my neck, holding me down on the landing outside the bedrooms

"I SAID YOU NEED TO CLEAN MY ROOM!!"he yells, and punches me in he face and my nose starts to bleed

"I..I'm sorry. I..I'll do it..it now dad" I stutter out, 1/2 asleep, 1/2 still in pain

"DONT FUCKING CALL ME THAT!" He punched me even harder, and then drags me downstairs, and shoved me in the kitchen, I see that it's only 3 in the morning
"CLEAN MY FUCKING ROOM YOU IDIOT!" He bashed my head into the side , I cry out, holding my pounding head

He then sits down, turning on the Tv

After a minute, I see Tommy coming down
"A..alwex?"

"Hey Tom, you ok?"

"W...what happened? U...your bl..blood"

"Oh? T..that's nothing, don't worry about it, You should go upstairs and sleep some more, ok?"

"I..I wanna see daddy" he smiles and walks up to him, I try and stop him but he walks up
, he gets nervous around him whenever he beats me, he always wants to impress him, and it's make me so sad when he can't get it
"Hiya daddy"

"Don't call me that."

"I..I'm sorry daddy"

"I SAID DONT CALL ME THAT!"
He slapped tommy, and I see he tears up, I motion for him to come to me and I hug him tight,

I whisper things to him saying how kind he is,trying to make him feel better

"Does daddy hate me?"
"What? N-"

"I FUCKING TOLD YOU NOT TO CALL ME THAT! YOU ARE BOTH LITTLE BRATS WHO ARE WORTHLESS AND YOU COMPLAIN ABOUT EVERYTHING, You HAVNT WORKED FOR ANYTHNG" he starts screaming at us, he then comes up to me, and grabs me by the neck, chocking me as he walks, Tommy was running behind trying to keep up, He was heading towards the front door, he unlocks the door, FUCK PLEASE NO

He then throws me outside, my body falling onto the Concrete , and Tommy comes to see me,
"IM NOT LETTING YOU BACK UNTIL YOU ACTUALLY DESERVE IT!!!"

"W..wait please no-"
He slams the door, so now me and Tommy are Locked outside, in the middle of the night with only Pj's