HELP ME!

Chapter 14

I stand there in shock for a moment, and Tommy looks confused and tried to open the door again, and my dad bangs on the door from the inside ,

"FUXK OFF!!"
He yells at Tommy

He looks sad and walks Back to me

I hold his hand and i choose to just go to the park that's close to our house, And I end up falling asleep behind a tree, holding Tommy tight , and I silently fall asleep but I can't really sleep, every noise is creeping me out,

After what felt like years the morning came, and I knew people would start to come on into the park , and the people who live around here are not that friendly, so I gently wake Tommy up, he is still in his old Pj's and we both have no shoes on, and I pick him up, and start walking, I have no idea what to do

Normally my dad would throw me into the backyard , and not let me back in until the morning, even when it was snowing once

I just chose to go to a park near rebbeca's area, and we start the pretty long walk there, still no shoes on, and as Tommy's feet was hurting, I carried him for almost 2 hours and I almost collapse when I arrive and Tommy goes and plays on the slide, and I managed to get myself under the shade of a tree

Tommy wondering off not too far, and I gently drift off, thinking about what my life was like when I was younger

6 Years ago:
(When he was 10)

I came home from school, excited because We get to go on a school trip next week to a Museum, And I walk into the house, Seeing my dad Passed out on the couch, I went up to my room, I have a book shelf, and a wooden wardrobe, my bed is quite nice too, and I pick up the book I was reading last night, and I keep reading it,

I hear my dad walking upstairs, and he walked into my room, still in his work clothes, and he looked at me, clearly drunk
"H..how waz school?" Slurring his words, sitting on the end of my bed

"I...it was okay.... The teacher said We could go on a school trip, next week.... I..is that okay?"

"I don't know, You havnt done anything I asked.... I kept crying last night plus you said no to James.AND you havnt done any of your chores yet."

"O...oh.... I..I'm sorry dad..."
I feel bad instantly, I try to be good for him, I don't really get what he wants me to do at night, he did it for ages but he never says what he it is and it hurts , and I feel worse that I can't go to the Museum, I was really looking forward to that.

"Just make it up to me , go make me some food dumbass"
He says, in a much scarier tone than before so I rush up and Run to make food for him,

Present day

It's starting to get darker, and my dad texts me "get home." That's all he said, to be honest it's better than the other texts he sends me

"Kill yourself. no one loves you and you're a disgrace," think that was just the middle of the day for no reason, but didn't mean it's not true

I go and get Tommy and I start walking home, my body aches so bad, my feet are really painful, And I'm carrying tommy , I then get home after almost 2 and 1/2 hours

I knock on the door and my dad opens it, and he grabbed me by my shirt, and throws me on the floor

Tommy gets scared and runs upstairs to hide

I then see 3-4 of my dads friends (including James) and then all start kicking me and beating me up while I'm huddled on the floor, some of them fucked me, I lost track and zoned out after while

After awhile longer, my pj's are ruined, blood stained and ripped, I desperately need new clothes, I havnt had any 4-5 years

I go into see Tommy, And he slowly comes out from hiding, and I hug him, making sure he is okay, and my dad walks in

"If you do no clean that FUCKING ROOM ILL KICK YOU OUT WITH NOT EVEN CLOTHES ON WHILE RAINING!!"

I nod, getting up and quickly trying to hide the blood stains on my clothes, or he'll laugh at me for it.

I then go and start cleaning his room, it's quite nice, he has a large wardrobe, large bed too, a bedside table, He has a pile of used clothes, and some of them has my blood on it, Prob when punching me, and I start taking it downstairs and set to wash,

He stares at me while he's on the couch, and I go back upstairs to keep cleaning his room

After about 2 hours of cleaning, I go and get changed, I managed to find some older Pants , and hoodie, I desperately need more clothes

I then walk down and tell my dad it's done

"Finally" he says, walking infront of me, and slowly backing me up into a wall,

"I....I..I'm gonna make food f..for tommy"
I say,hoping it will distract him

He suddenly grabbed my neck, holding me onto the wall, and he punched my stomach and spits on me, he then drops me and I fall down

"Ur getting too fat." He said, and walks away

After a moment, tommy comes up to me and hugs me
"Are u okie?"

"Mhm, let's get you sone food"

He smiles, and followed me to the kitchen, and helped me get some things out, I chose to make him some chicken and pasta, as my dad wasn't to fond of any

After about 30 minutes he was all full, and was sitting on the couch as we both ended up falling asleep, my dad had left for his date, and after a minute, I take tommy up to our room, he wanted to sleep on my bed so I held him close and passed out next to him