HELP ME!

Chapter 2

I wake up in a Bloody mess , I also hear Tommy crying which mean James most likely did it.

I limp upstairs and Go to out room , it's a Medium sized room , my bed ( a Thin mattress on the floor with no Sheets or anything, just a Thin blanket and that's it, I know it's More than some  people have, so I should be greatful) and Tommy bed ( a Broken , Rlly broken , 3 of the sides are broken on a crib that is too small for him , and 2 of the legs are broken so is leaning downwards and tommy has a Thicker blanket than me because I have it to him because he needs it) I see Tommy crying in his bed , he isn't wearing anything from the waist down , his diaper (because I've never been able to try and get him to potty train) is throw over the room and I go to tommy

"A..Alwex?" Tommy says and hugging me tightly

"Yeah buddy?" It hurts me so much to see him like this but I need to be alive for him otherwise tommy will end up taking the beating and Rapes that I get for defending him, but he still lives everyone

"I..it hurt" he says while whining

I hug him back and stroke his Back to try and clam him
"I know buddy , it will be ok , let's get you cleaned up" I smile , it's hard but I have to keep strong for him ,

I get him cleaned up and I get him in his Pjs

They are old but they are all he has

He stops crying and I pick him up and get him some water and I then Bring him to his broken crib

"Nooo , me want your bed tonight" he says , he always dose this when he gets.....yeah

"Fine buddy" I get his blaneket and I lay him down on the Bed and I tuck him in and I walk downstairs, I still need to do my homework

I get almost done when I hear the door open and my Drunk dad stumbles in

"Boy! Where is my fucking food you faggot!" My dad says and I he sits down as I go and start cooking his food and my dad throws my homework on the floor ,

"I..it's cooking now" I say , after starting to cook his food

"Good , while it cook you can come and , Help me , now" he says , I already know what he means

"Mhm" I don't want to do it but I have to

I walk to my dad and I knell infront of him , he unzips his Pants and gets his Member out and grabs my Hair , but my beanie gets in the way and he throws it away and he makes his own son suck him off, gripping onto my hair and making me choke

After about 14 minutes, my dad cums and i choke again , I hated all of it

"Get be a beer you fucking faggot" he says and kicks e in the face and I fall backs and he laughs

I stand up and I go get him a beer and I finish making his food, I give him the things and I grab all of my things for homework and I walk upstairs and to mine and Tommy's room , I take off my clothes , my body is so fat (AN: he is very THINnn), I have ugly bruises on my body and chest, I look at my arms , and all the self afflictions that I've done

I know it's bad but I like feeling pain that I can control, to know this is something only me can choose to do

I get into bed shorts and I let tommy have the biggest side and I try and fall asleep , I never get the most sleep anyway

Next morning

I wake up and I look at the clock

SHIT I'm a hour late to get up

I get up and get tommy up

"Quickly buddy , we need to go now" I
say while getting him ready for Nursery

I get him dressed and I quickly throw on sweat pants and then a black hoodie and I get my old shoes (the only shoes I own) on and I get Tommy's on and I get his bags do quickly start walking