HELP ME!

Chapter 7

I cry on the floor, my hand in Crazy about of pain

I then get up, holding my hand and I get the first aid kit out, and I wrap my hand up, and I then walk upstairs,

"A..ale?" I hear a quiet voice crying

"Tommy!!" I run into our room and see the Small boy bleeding, and crying , huddled up in a Ball in the corner behind the small pile of clothes we have.

I got to him and he hugs me very tight, I pick him up

"Shhhh baby it's okay, I'm here, it's okay..." I say, wanting to hurt myself cause Tommy got hurt

"Why dose Daddy hate me?" He whispers, crying

I feel my heart shatter , I can't say That dad hates him because Tommy loves Dad. But I can't say he loves Tommy since he will think people do this for love

"H.he dosnt Hate you Bud" i say, hugging Him still

"O..okay" he says though sniffles

Tommy hugs me even tighter and I get tommy undressed and change his diaper , and put him in bed, it's a Hour before I would normally put him to sleep, but He is always Scared and Tired after stuff That intense happens

After putting him to sleep in my bed I walk downstairs, in pain with my burning hand, and I sigh and get out my homework

I did about 3 hours worth of homework and then I was very hungry, but I had a better idea

I walk upstairs to my bathroom and I lock the door, and open the cabinets to get my razor

I grab it and I then sit down on the floor, and take off my hoodie and keep on my Shortsleeved Shirt

I then start cutting away at my arms, the blood dripping fast

After a while I smile as the Pattern I made on my arm and I clean myself all up I wrap my arm in a Bandage ,

I then get changed into my bed shorts and I get in bed, letting Tommy have the bigger side since he needs it, and After a while I fall asleep

NEXT MORNING

I get up super fast , having just had a Nightmare, I'm panting , after a second I Calm myself, and Look next to me and Tommy is cuddled up and looks adorable

I decide I'll get some sleep until Tommy is awake , and I fall back asleep

SOME TIME LATER

I feel Patting on my face and I wake up and seek Tommy, smiling as he gently taps me away

"Hewo!!" He giggles and Hugs me

"Hey Tom" I say in a Kinda scratchy voice , I hug him back, I wince as he accidentally pressed on some cuts and scars

I get up, and Tommy dressed , I then pull on a Hoodie , no shirt , jjst my bed shorts and the hoodie

I then go downstairs with Tommy and I get him a breakfast Bar

I get some water and I drink it , I've very light headed

I go and sit down , next to Tommy and I put on a kids show

LATER

I am throwing up in the Toilet , it's mainly Blood And abit of water but I feel sick

I get up after awhile and I walk back to Tommy

"Hey Tom, I got a Question for you" I say as I sit next to him
"What do you wanna do today?" I look at him and he seems kinda shocked

"Oh, Can daddy not hit you? It's scary" he says and i instantly feel horrible