Jonnor, love is much more

25.Figuring things out

Jude's Pov:

"Do you still have feelings for him?" She asked.

I stood there shocked yet mesmerized by the question. Did I have feelings for Connor, no I can't have feelings for him I like Kyle and besides Connors the one that left me all those years ago.

"No, I don't" I said still unsure.

"Well then you have your answer, Stay with Kyle" she said.

"I have to go" I said.

I made my way out of Jimmy johns and walked home the long way, past the park trying to clear my head of all the thoughts of Connor, I didn't know what to do and as saddening as it was Bemo was no help. I thought to my self for a while then heard my name being called.

"JUDE! I heard.

I turned around to see Kyle walking my way, wearing a beanie, a flannel, a t-shirt and jeans with boots his typical hipster wear. He comes over and engulfed me in a hug.

"Hey it feels like it's been forever since we've seen each, other how are you?' He asks.

"I've been fine how are you" I said.

"A lot better now that I'm with you by the way I don't think I apologized for getting mad at you and being jealous at the diner when we got breakfast, so I'm sorry... so what are you doing right now?" He asks, his British accent coming out a little.

"It's fine and Nothing much just going home clearing my head?" I say trying not to give away that I was thinking of Connor.

"Well, would you mind hanging out with your boyfriend?" He asks with a smile.

"Hmmm.." I say jokingly, "Lemme think.... sure why not".

We walk for a while around the park and end up at the swings he's pushing me.

"So what were you thinking about?" He asks while pushing me.

"Nothing much why?" I ask.

"Because I care about you and you problems are my problems" He says while slowing down the swing and giving me a hug from behind.

"I was just thinking about Connor and you" I decide to say honestly.

"Why?" He asks keeping the same tone.

"I don't know it's dumb" I say not wanting to tell him.

"that can't be true nothing you could say or do or think could ever be described as such" He says crouching in front of me and holding my hands while looking at me with pleading eyes.

"It's just that... so I slept over Connors last night and he told me something's when he thought that I was asleep that compromised how I felt about him and..."I couldn't finish the sentence.

"Me..." He said solemnly.

"Yes.."I said quietly.

"So how do you feel about us" He said gesturing between us.

"I don't know" I said looking at the ground.

"Do you remember when we first met after I moved from London to anchor beach" He asked looking at me.

"Yeah why" I ask.

"Because when I first met you I knew that I liked you I knew that I wanted to be friends with you even If we couldn't be more than that" he said.

*Flash Back to eighth grade*

Kyles Pov:

I was walking through the hallways to football (soccer) practice when I looked outside and saw a boy by himself curled up against a tree, he seemed really sad and I don't know depressed. I walked over, and sat down next to him.

"Hi my names Kyle" I said holding my hand out, looking at the figure.

The boy looked up his eyes were glassy probably from crying, but they were beautiful non the less, he had reddish brownish hair and was pale.

He just looked at me for a second and then at my hand.

"I'm Jude" he said lightly shaking my hand.

"Well Jude would you like to get ice cream with me" I said smiling at him forgetting about football (soccer) practice.

"umm... sure" he said quietly.

*End of Flash Back*

"What are you saying" I asked Kyle.

"I'm saying that if you want out of this relationship, if that's what you really want, as much as it would hurt me, who am I to stop you" Kyle said with glassy eyes.