You're Good Enough

Chapter 11

I feel so bad. I hurt her. An omega's job is to make their alpha happy. I can't even do that right. All I do is make her feel bad. I wish I could do better. I began waking up to being in my Alphas arms. She was still asleep so I slowly snuck put if her grip. I know she doesn't want me to do this but if I can't make her happy I deserve a punishment. I crept into the bathroom where I keep my blades hidden in the mirror. I pulled one out placing it on my arm. I slowly drug it across my arm, feeling the sting and tear of the blade. I continued this a few more times. When I finished I counted 15 cuts. I quickly bandaged them and made my way back to the bedroom. I placed myself back into Inkos arms for a few more hours of sleep. I woke up again a few hours later to Inko petting my head. "Mm. Warm." Inko chuckled, "I know it's warm pup but it's time to get up." I slowly sat up. "Mh fine." I remembered what I did and felt guilty. I knew I couldn't tell her. It would hurt her, more than I already had. 'Pup. I know what your thinking.' "What did you do? I need to know so I can help." I shook my head. "No. No, I can't tell you. You'll be so disappointed. Please don't. I can't." She moved impossibly closer to me. "Pup. I know you're worried. But I'm here. And I won't be disappointed. Please tell me or I'll make you." No. No. No. "I can't! You can't know. If you make you'll be disappointed. You'll hate me." She can't know.  "Toshinori. Tell me what you did. I want to help." Fuck. She used her alpha command on me. I can't not tell her. "I-I," I tried to resist it, but it wasn't working, "I c-cut myself, Alpha." I started crying and sobbing uncontrollably. "I'm sorry. I hurt you. An omegas job is to make their alpha happy. I can't do that right. I deserve pu ishment. You won't punish me and I know I deserve it."