You're Good Enough

Chapter 42

I woke up when she opened the door. "Hello there pretty boy. You okay baby?" I nodded, not wanting to truly wake up yet. "Good boy. Have anything in particular you want to do?" I shook my head. I just want to be a good boy. "Well then beautiful," she nuzzled my nose. "Why don't we take a warm bath, then I'll give you a massage, then we can cuddle. Does that sound good?" I nodded, closing my eyes as she started the bath. "You're a sleepy baby now aren't you? I bet all that was a lot." I nodded. It was a lot. Too much. Just like I am. "No baby. You aren't too much. You are my perfect omega. Such a good boy for me." I just layed there, not lying, not telling the truth. "Okay baby?" I just nodded, I won't make her angry, I can't. I'll just listen. I won't think. I won't argue. I won't do anything she doesn't tell me to. She'll be happy. "Baby. You have a belly buldge. Our pup is getting bigger." I smiled a bit, she's right and she's happy. "The baths all done my prince. Want to do that massage?" I nodded. It's what she said she wanted to do. "You aren't talking baby. Are you feeling nonverbal again?" I shook my head. I could speak but if I did I'd say the wrong thing. "Baby. You can't say the wrong thing. You can say whatever you need. I'm right here. Please talk to me Toshi." I'm so stupid. I made her sad. I gripped my wrists, slightly stabbing them with
my nails. "I-I'm sorry Alpha." She mover her hands to my wrists, carefully pulling them apart. "Don't hurt yourself pet."I shrugged, I deserve it. I was bad. I made her sad. "Come on baby, we're gonna go cuddle okay? And maybe you could tell me about it." I nodded and we made our way back to the room after we got dressed. She pulled me next to her but after she held me for a few minutes I felt a wave of disappointment roll over myself. "S-sorry but I have to u-use the bathroom." She nodded smiling at me. I walked out of the room closing the door behind me. I quietly got to the front door, sliding my shoes on. I opened the door and quietly left. I began running not wanting her to find me. I was bad. When I was out of breath I quite running and started walking. I made my way to Mic and Aizawa's. I went to Midnights last time, she'd expect me there. "Hey Yagi. What are you doing back already?" Aizawa asked. "I-I'm sorry. I ran a-away. C-can I come in?" He nodded letting me through the door. I sat down, looking at my hands. "Why'd you run Yagi? What happened?" I looked at Mic before staring at my hands again. "I was b-bad. So I thought i-if I left she w-would find so-someone better." Mic ran over hugging me. "Yagi. She wants you. She's probably worried sick." I shook my head. "S-she thinks I'm in the bathroom." Aizawa looked at me before speaking. "You know she'll find you, and she'll be worried. You should at least let her know you left." I nodded. 'A-Alpha?' She was fast to respond asking what was wrong. 'I ran a-away. I'm sorry. I-I'm safe.' I felt her shoot up and she spoke quickly. "Why'd you run baby? Where are you?' Mic had moved so just his hand was on my back and he was sitting next to me. I turned to look at him worried. He nodded, smiling. 'I w-was bad. I thought if I left you would find someone better. I'm safe. You don't have to worry about me anymore.' 'Baby tell me where you are please. I'm even more worried right now. Please baby. I need you back. Please.' God I'm so stupid. I can't do anything right. 'I-I'm at a friend's house. I'm sorry alpha.' "I'm gonna go to the bathroom guys." They both nodded smiling. I quickly went to the bathroom and began crying. I found some razors and quickly made work of cutting my arms. Suddenly the door opened and there stood Inko. She slowly walked in, closing the door behind her. She knelt next to me holding out her hand. "Hey baby. Can you give that to me please?" I can't I need it to punish myself. But if I don't it will make her sad. I slowly nodded, dropping it into her extended hand. "I-I'm sorry. I'm s-sorry for being b-bad." I looked down as she grabbed the first aid kit. "Don't apologize pet. You don't have to. And just because you broke a rule doesn't mean that you're bad. You are such a good boy and my perfect omega. Okay? Mine." I nodded. "I-I'm yours." She kissed my bandaged arm. "Good boy. Now let's go home, you'll get a punishment for breaking a rule, then we'll cuddle and do something calming. Okay?" I nodded again, smiling slightly when I felt our pup kick. I frowned again realizing I had ended up hurting him. I'm so fucking useless, all I do is hurt the people I care about. "I'm sorry pup," I whispered quietly.