You're Good Enough

Chapter 15

Inko began making sandwiches for us while I sat at the bar stools. When could I do it? Right after? No that would be do suspicious. A few minutes later? Yeah I can just say I have to use the bathroom. She finished making the sandwiches and brought them over. She placed the plates down kissing my head as she sat down next to me. "Here you go baby. Eat up." I smiled and nodded. I began eating the sandwich. It was amazing. "Th-thank you Alpha. It-its really good." She smiled and nodded. I continued eating until the sandwich was gone. Inko had been done for a while and was waiting for me when I turned to tell he I was done she had a huge smile on her face. "You did so well Toshi! I'm so proud of you." I smiled and blushed looking down at my hands. "Th-thank you." I fiddled with my fingers unsure of what she wanted to do. "Why don't we go cuddle again pet?" I nodded and we made our way back to the bed. We laid down and hald each other. She rubbed my head and back. After a few minutes I moved to look up at Inko. "I have to use the b-bathroom." She nodded and gave me a small kiss before I got up. When I got into the bathroom I whispered to myself. "I'm sorry Alpha. I know you want me better but I can't be gross." I kneeled infront of the toilet and stuck two fingers down my throat. A few moments later I felt a burning in my throat. I pulled my fingers from my throat and got rid of the little food in my system. "Fuck I'm so stupid. I deserve to hurt. I did something bad." I pulled my blade from the mirror again and began to pull it across my arm. A few minutes later there was a knock on the door. "Toshi? Baby? Are you okay in there?" I quickly made an excuse. "Yeah I'll be out in a minute." I heard her walk away and quickly wiped up my mess. I made my way from the bathroom to Inko sitting on the bed. "Baby boy?" I sat next to her looking at her. "Why were you in there so long?" I squeaked. "Um I-I guess my stomach did not like so much food so I had a stomach ache. I didn't throw up though." She looked at me sadly. "Baby don't lie please." I looked at her startled. "Wh-what do you mean?" She pulled towards her kissing me on the nose. "Baby I could hear you talking to yourself. And pet there's blood on your sleeve." I looked down quickly to see that she was right. She pulled my face to look at her. "Why Toshi?" I pulled away and sat in the far corner of the bed. "I-Im sorry. I didn't want the be fat. I-I did something bad and I knew you didn't like it. So I pu-punished myself." She turned towards me with her hands out.  "Baby can you hold my hands? I'm gonna help you calm down. You aren't breathing right." I looked at her hands then at her. She looked so worried. I slowly reached my hands put and places them in hers. She placed my hands on her chest. I felt her inhale as she began to speak. "Good job Toshi. You're doing great. Now can you follow my breathing?" I nodded and tried to follow her instructions. A few minutes late my breathing was more normal but still very chaotic. "Good job pet," she whispered, "Can I move closer to you? Hold you?" I nodded and she pulled me so my ear was in her chest. "Good boy. Keep following my breathing." I continued following her breathing and it finally calmed down.