You're Good Enough

Chapter 13

I knew I needed help. I was suicidal, selfharming, and had an eating disorder. But do I deserve help? I'm annoying, loud, weak, and a whole lot more. Someone like that couldn't deserve help...right? Inko says that I'm perfect and she loves me, but for all I know she's just trying to build me up before breaking me. I don't want that to happen. I love her so much and I know I'd never leave her but I don't want her to hurt me. "Hey Toshi?" I hummed. "I won't hurt you. And I mean that. Remember you can hear what I think too. You would hear if I was planning anything." She kissed me lightly, "I love you too, pup." I looked at her trying to see if she was lying. I didn't see any indication and leaned against her. "Alpha?" She hummed, urging me to continue. "If we weren't soulmates would you have chosen me?" She chuckled, kissing my forehead. "Of course I would've. You're perfect."
"But I'm not. I-I'm loud, and on-obnoxious, and annoying. I'm no where near perfect." She kissed me on my forehead before she began speaking. "Well I'm gonna tell you why you are perfect. Your kind, and loyal, and cute, and you always put others ahead of yourself. You are perfect and you do deserve help, Toshi." J shook my head. "No. No. I don't do anything good. I'm bad. I'm a bad omega. I'm a bad friend. I'm a bad person. Why should someone like that deserve help?" She frowned at me. "Hey Toshinori." Crap she used my full last name. "I'm your alpha. Which means I would know if you're a bad omega. You're not. Your friends love and care about you. That means you're a good friend. So these together mean you are a good person. I'm not mad. You aren't in trouble. But you need to know this." I nodded. I don't believe her but this will help, so I make her happy. I'm careful not to think this though.