You're Good Enough

Chapter 45

I'm a good boy chanted in my head before coming to a dead stop. Am I a good boy? What if she's just staying with me and saying all this because she has to? Because she is my destined alpha? More tears fell down my face and I hid it. She doesn't want to see my ugly face. Inko began brushing my hair with her hand, whispering praises gently. "My beautiful Toshi. All for me." I kept my head hidden, not wanting her to be disappointed in me. "How are you prince? Still floaty?" I shook my head. I'm not floaty, I'm just bad. She moved me a bit so I was laying on her chest. "Why're you hiding baby?" I stayed silent, not wanting her to know how weak I am. She brushed my hair back before moving my head to look at her. "What's wrong Toshi? Why are you crying?" I shook my head, trying to free my face from her hands, to hide again. She kept a strong but gentle grip on my face, keeping me from moving. "I-I'm sorry. I'm being w-weak." She kissed my forhead, whispering gently. "Why are you being weak hun?" I swallowed deeply before answering. "I'm c-crying again, like a stupid baby. A-are you st-staying with me because you h-have to?" She smiled sadly. "Who said I had to stay? I'm choosing to stay with you. For no other reason except I love you." I smiled a little crying more. Damnit I made her sad. She loves me and she tells me she does. Why am I so stupid?
"I-I'm sorry Al-alpha. Don't be m-mad please. I-I'm s-sorry I'm stupid. J-just don't be mad please." I freed my face from her hands, turning away from her, hiding myself from he look of disappointment. She kissed my temple, not forcing me to look at her. "I could never be mad at you baby. And you are not stupid. You are so smart and caring. My perfect omega Toshi." I began crying harder, wrapping my arms around my stomach. "I'm s-sorry. Sorry. So-sorry." I continued chanting that until she quieted me with a kiss. "It's okay baby. I've got you. You have nothing to apologize for." She pulled me back to her chest, brushing my hair again. "Everything's okay hun. Is there anything you want baby?" I shrugged. "Sleep?" She nodded, kissing my head. "You can sleep baby. I'll be right her." I nodded, slowly falling asleep. Not ready for the nightmare to come.