PRESENT TIME, TWO WEEKS LATER, IN THE EVENING, AT HARRY'S FUNERAL, INFRONT OF HARRY'S GRAVESTONE, CRYING
L O U I SToday's the day.
Today's the day I've been afraid of since meeting the love of my life.
I never wanted to look at his grave stone, knowing he's gone but now, I have to.
I don't feel anything because my heart and my soul are missing and I am nothing anymore.
I am the leftovers of my old self.
I don't even feel the tears running down my cheeks until a gentle hand brushs them away.
„It's going to be okay, Louis."
„No, it's never going to be okay again, Mom. He's gone forever. I won't ever touch him again, see him, talk to him, smile at him, laugh at him, cuddle him, kiss him....Never again. Never."
Mom cupps my cheek and makes me look at her in the face.
„You will see him again in heaven. Harry's watching you. I'm sure that he wouldn't want you to cry."
„I don't even realize I am crying. I don't feel anything. He can't be gone, Mom. He- He can't. I can't be all alone now. Why isn't he with me?"
„He's at peace. Let him arrive there. He isn't in pain anymore. Cancer's gone. He's happy now."
„But how can he be happy in heaven when I am sad and crying infront of his gravestone?"
„Louis...."
I pull away from Mom and immediately shake my head, determinded.
„No. I don't understand it. Why am I all alone crying and the love of my life's not here? Please, tell me why. I need to know why. It hurts so much."
„He's gone now, Boo. No matter what you do, he's gone. You can cry, you can scream how much you want but you have to accept that he's not here anymore and won't ever be again. Everyday, thousands of people die. Death happens everyday. Everyone experiences the loss of someone you loved at least once a life time. You aren't alone with your pain, Louis. Thousand of people share it with you. But no matter how much you cry: It won't make the person come back. I want you to keep that in mind when you feel like crying, okay? You're so strong. You can go through this. I can help you."
„Mom, no, I can't. I am not strong. I am weak without the love of my life by my side. I will be it forever because he will never be by my side again."
„It's going to be okay. Life's not over. I know that Harry would want you to go on with your life. Do it for him. Be strong for him and yourself. You can go through this. You aren't alone, I am here for you and I will help you if you will let me."
„Thank you, Mom. Thank you so much."
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