Keep Going ~Jiara~

Back to reality #10

Kie pov

It has been 3 days since the incident and my wounds are healing and everyone is getting happier. We all love each other and we are trying to take staying on this island as a win.

Although we all know we will have to go back eventually.

I wake up from a very tiring night since we were playing games and talking for a while. I turn over and see JJ. Yes I know it's odd us sleeping together every night but he makes me feel safe especially after what happened.

To be honest I don't leave anywhere without him. Everything just seems so odd and makes me scared or confused when I'm not with him.

The main reason we started staying together was because I had been getting awful flashbacks of what had happened.

(2 days prior)

We are all sitting by the fire and talking and playing a few games and we are all separated into twos as we sit.

I'm next to JJ, Sarah and John B are together, and Pope and Cleo are together. We talk for a while.

"Hey I'm gone, good night everyone!" John B says and stands up.

We have all decided we are going to sleep in threes again, girls in one and boys in the other tent.

"Yeah same." Sarah agrees also standing up. "Yup" Pope says and walks to the guy's tent. "Yeah I'm out" Cleo says and walks to the girl's tent.

"Hey I'm gonna go to" JJ says but he looks at me and I can see him wait for the others to leave so he can help me to my tent.

After the whole kidnapping thing the wounds have been a struggle to deal with and it made it hard to walk.

He gives me his hand and I take it. While trying to stand up, I stumble into him. He holds me in his arms asking "hey, you ok?"

"Yes, I'm fine thanks for catching me" I say smiling and trying to walk.

He runs up to me and puts my arm around his shoulder and he holds my waist obviously giving me rapid butterflies but i have to focus on not face planting into the sand.

"Here we are" he says as I take my arm of his shoulder. "Thank you" I tell him and hug him.

I hide my head in the crook of his neck and just hug him for a while. He smells mainly like weed but to be completely honest I don't mind. He makes me comfortable and relaxed whenever I am with him.

"Hey, if you need anything tonight don't be afraid to ask me, I will always be here for you, I promise." He says and holds my face so I look up at him.

I cant even explain how much I just want to lean in and kiss him but something inside of me is telling me not too.

"Thank you so much, and I will. Good night!" I say hugging him even tighter before I walk a little until I get inside the tent.

"Good night!" He responds waving to me.

I lay down in between cleo and Sarah since they are very spaced out leaving only that space for me to sleep in.

I get under the blanket and try and go to sleep. I can help but think back to what happened. How I was just used by Rafe to ease his pain and the scratches and cuts all over me just gushing blood.

I hate thinking about this but theses memories just keep flooding my head. I keep thinking back to the pain and the hundreds of times I screamed for help.

I start to sweat and tears are now steaming down my cheeks.I mess with my fingers in attempt to calm myself down.

Nothing works and then I think of how JJ had to see me all bloody and bruised and how he shouldn't have come to save me.

My breathing gets patchy and I am having a panic attack right there.

I get up and try to run to the beach but I move my legs and the pain just overwhelms me and I fall to the ground maybe 7 feet away from the tents and I am near the campfire.

I cant help but fall into this overwhelming state and start sobbing as I curl up with my knees at my chest laying on my side.

JJ pov

I can hear something outside but I can't put my finger on it. The sounds starts to get louder and sounds like someone crying by the campfire.

I get up out of my tent trying not to wake up Pope and John B. I rush outside and see Kiara laying on the ground sobbing.

I run up to her and she instantly pushes me away. "Stop, you don't need to see me like this again!" She says while trying to catch her breath from crying this whole time and turning away from me.

"What are you talking about? This is not a problem you are obviously not ok" I say while kneeling in front of her.

"I don't need to cause you any more problems than I have" she says and sits up with her head still in her knees.

My heart shatters hearing her talk like this and I respond with "Kiara, you haven't caused any problems, I swear. I told you that you can come to me for anything and I meant it with all of my heart"

She looks up at me and gives me a weak smile saying "I..I have just been having a few flashbacks from what happened and they didn't make me feel exactly great."

I feel horrible she has to go through this. I reach to hold her hands in mine but she flinches when I slightly touch her hand with mine.

This could not be easy on her and I can tell it's going to take her a while to get more comfortable with everyone.

To my surprise she puts her hands in mine and her hands feel cold and small in mine. I kiss her hand and tell her "I'm really sorry for everything that happened but you can come to me whenever you want and we can just talk through it, I promise."

"That sounds really nice JJ." She says and gives me a genuine smile.

"Um..do you think I could stay with you at night from now on?" She asks looking almost nervous to tell me anything. "You just make me feel better when these things happen" she continues.

"Of course, that sounds like a great idea" I tell her "We can try and make another tent In the morning and we can all sleep in pairs."

"Thank you so much" she tells me smiling even brighter than she did.

"Hey I wanted to give you something" I say taking a slim black ring off of my finger. "It should remind you that I will always be there for you"

"I promise" I say as I slip the ring onto her middle finger.

"And I can flip people off with a ring you gave me" she tells me and we both laugh.

"Thank you so much" she says looking at the ring.

I scoot next to her and lay down with her head in my chest and my arms are around her waist and back holding her extremely close to me since it isn't exactly warm outside at night here.

"Good night" she whispers to me and I can feel her breath up against my chest.

"Good night"I say kissing her forehead.

(End of memory thing)

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Hey guys sorry it's been a while. I hope you liked this chapter!
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