Keep Going ~Jiara~

Panicked #24

Kiara POV

I hate this. I hate my mom. I hate that I even came. The things they said were horrible and I shouldn't have dragged JJ with me.

I know it hurts him to hear those things.

I walk by the Twinkie and just lean on it sliding my back down and putting my head in my knees. I feel sick and everything is spinning.

JJ runs over  and kneels down to me and wraps his arms around me. Everything is spinning I can't even stand up.

"Kiara?" He asks me clearly concerned. I cant answer, I try but the words won't come out of my mouth.

I can't even focus on what is going on and I can't breathe. I feel like I'm falling apart and I just sob into JJ.

JJ's POV
Her breathing is shaky and her grip is tight on me. I hate her feeling this way, she doesn't deserve it. What her parents told her was horrible and I would never wish for her to feel this pain she is feeling now.

"Hey kie I promise it will be ok" I try and tell her gently while I rub her back. She starts to shake and I need to get her back to the chateau to calm her down and get away from this kook town so she doesn't feel so trapped.

I can tell she is having a panic attack and she needs the comfort of her home not the place her parents call "her home".

We sit there until She starts to calm down a little and pulls away leaning back against the Twinkie with tears still covering her face.

"Slow, deep breaths Kie" she listens and does what i say and her breathing becomes more controlled as she relaxes a bit.

"I'm sorry J I don't know what just happened" she says as she almost starts crying again.

I take her hands in mine and hold them close to me "it was a panic attack and I don't need you to be sorry. You have done nothing wrong and I am always here for you no matter what."

She smiles softly "how did you know what to do?" She asks tilting her head a little bit.

I look down and think how to answer. I know she is going to be sad when I tell her the truth.

"I have been having panic attacks since I was 8. Except, I didn't know they were panic attacks until I was 11 at John B's house. I got into a fight with my dad and went to JB's to forget about my home and spend time with him and his dad, when he was still here. I freaked out when they asked me what happened to my face and I had a panic attack. Big John helped me through it and I knew what to do ever since then. Only John B knew but even he doesn't know the full thing." I explained.

Her face dropped a little and i hate when people feel sorry for me. It feels like I am a problem and a burden. Although, I do know Kie and she will always be emotional about these things and she has a very big heart.

"JJ I'm so sorry. I wish I knew sooner and I would be able to help if ever needed. Why didn't you tell any of us?" She asks as she hugs me.

"I uh..I'm not sure, but don't feel sorry I'm ok now." I don't have the heart to tell her I don't want people to feel sorry for me so I shut them out. The pain of knowing she feels sorry or bad is not something I want to cause.

"Ok, I won't push you to say anything but thank you for telling me about your panic attacks" she says smiling again making me relived she wasn't going to ask more questions.

"Thank you kie"

I could not be more lucky. She didn't even push me to say anything I didn't want to. I love her so much and I will tell her more when I am ready but it has been a lot for today and the rest is a conversation for another time.

She starts to get up. "I think we should go back to the chateau now and fill everyone in and see how it went for the rest of them, or I guess only pope."she says as I start to get up also.

"Yeah I agree and, I love you" I tell her opening the door for her.

" I love you too Mr. Maybank" she says playfully.

I go in for a kiss but she doges it, laughing and closing the door.

"You know what I'll get you back for that later" I say winking.

"Oh will you" she responds smirking.

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