I'll Be Seeing You

My Protector

"I'm so sorry Jimmy I didn't wanna go but she insisted I came out of there because she was all over that fella I couldn't bare it" I sob at him "hey it's alright Phoebs it's alright please don't get upset my darling" he says wrapping his arms around me as we head down the street with Vi still calling me "how did you know I was here "I got on the bus to come home and Arthur said he'd seen you with Vi" he tells me "yeah and she was bloody after him and all" I tell him "but I wasn't Jimmy I haven't been messing about or anything" I sob and he laughs gently "oh baby I know you haven't and I know you never would you are nothing like Vi you are the sweetest gel in the whole world you know and your mine my gel, my wife" he says and I just cry my heart out "oh Jimmy I've missed you so much" I say to him "Oh Phoebs I've missed you too" he says holding me close "have you had supper" he asks and I shake my head "Phoebs you need to eat to take care of the baby"he says "right fish supper it is" and I feel sickly "fish" I say as he sees my face "yeah why Phoebs you love a fish supper" he says "but I've been feeling so sick" I tell him "sick why"he asks "Mum says you do when you're first expecting it's your body getting used to 'avin a baby in there" I tell him "oh sorry darling I didn't know not really up on these things you know" he says "it's alright Jimmy I'm alright I just feel a bit rotten sometimes" I say "but I could manage a few chips" I say and he smiles "anything my gel wants she can 'ave" he says to me before he kisses me.

We stop at the chippie that Jimmy's Uncle runs "hey Jimmy lad you're home" he shouts to him "hey uncle Harry yeah just got a twenty four hour pass" he tells him twenty four hours is that all I think, the most precious twenty four hours there could be "hello Phoebe love how are ya" he asks "I'm alright thanks uncle Harry" I say as Jimmy orders our supper "one fish and two chips please Uncle Harry" he asks "only one fish you on a diet or summit" he asks "no Phoebs has got a bit of a dicky tummy" he tells him

"Oh no love you coming down with summit" he doesn't know "hasn't Dad told ya" Jimmy asks "told me what" he asks as Jimmy looks at me smiling "me and Phoebs we got a little one on the way" he says and he laughs "blimey Jimmy lad no he never said the daft sod" he says "well not many know yet" I say "oh that's brilliant news you two ah I'm so chuffed for ya" he says "oh god I gotta tell your Aunt Bess if I keep this from her she'll have me guts" he says as he calls out the back "Bess, Bess love come out ere" he says "what is it you noisy devil......ah Jimmy lad and Phoebe how are ya" she says "you'll never guess Bess" Uncle Harry says "Jimmy and Phoebe are expecting" he tells her and she puts her hands to her face "oh lummy oh ain't that just the sweetest thing ever" she says coming over to us both grabbing us "congratulations you two how are you feeling Phoebe love" she asks "she's been a little sickly haven't ya gel" Jimmy says "oh I had that when I was carrying our Tommy it'll pass gel trust me" she says while she's fussing over us Uncle Harry has got our food ready "here you go Jimmy lad" he says passing them to Jimmy "now boy get this girl home it's freezing out tonight" Aunt Bess says "will do" Jimmy answers "take care you two" Uncle Harry shouts as we leave.

We get to the bus stop just as the number thirty five is pulling up "come on gel lets go home" Jimmy says to me jumping on keeping me close as we head up top as we always did eating our chips on the way home "how come you've been given leave Jimmy" I ask him and he looks down and my heart almost stops "Jimmy" I ask again "Phoebs I'm going to be flying on my first bombing mission in a few days" he says as a huge sickness and not from our little one fills my stomach. "oh no" I sob to him "but darling it will be fine" he says pulling me close to him "how will it be fine what if....." I start and I can't carry on "it won't because I have so much to live for gel you and our baby Phoebs" he says looking at me with such sweet eyes Oh God I can't believe this sweet Lord please don't let anything happen to My Jimmy.

"That's why you've come home in case you don't come back" I blurt at him "No Phoebs no it isn't I've come home because I miss ya gel, miss you so much that it's hurting me I just want us to have a night together as every husband and wife should that's why" he says "And a good job I did come ain't it or God knows what that bloody bully would have done to ya" he says pulling me to him and I just start crying "You've always looked after me Jimmy protected me" I tell him "That's what I'm here for Phoebs" he says as He rubs my back "Now come on gel none of that tonight we are going to be happy yeah like the old days just you and me against the world Phoebs" he says "So you with me" he says pulling me to look at him and I nod my head "That's my gel" he says "So how about you start by giving your lad a kiss yeah" he asks "Well that's certainly like the old days ain't it" I say to him and he laughs before he kisses me his lovely soft lips against mine a comfort beyond words My lad, my man, my fella, my husband, My Jimmy and he was just mine, come on Phoebs put a smile on it gel I think to myself