I'll Be Seeing You

My Life's Aim

"Come on flower let's get going hey" Jimmy's Dad says to me as we hop into the car he sorted out for us we sit in the back I'm feeling even more nervous, nervous about the wedding, nervous about what Jimmy will say about the baby.
I must be in a world of my own as the next thing I hear is Jimmy's Dad saying "come on gel let's go we're here" I look around "ok" I say getting out of the car feeling quite wobbly on my feet and he notices "you hold on tight Phoebs I've got ya gel" he says.

We walk into the church as the little organ begins to play softly I'm suddenly overcome all those eyes staring at me until I spot him at the front of the church My darling Jimmy with that smile those twinkling eyes egging me on to come to him. My grip on my dear Dad in laws arm is so strong and he returns it winking at me as we walk slowly to the altar. Everyone smiles at me as I walk past them, my Mum I notice is crying making me want to do the same. Jimmy looks so smart he's in his RAF uniform looking so handsome yet the sight of him is a mixture of love and fear but I have to forget about that today and enjoy every second because who knows what will happen.

Jimmy looks down at me when I reach the altar "hey beautiful" he says to me giving me that cheeky smile "You look gorgeous Jimmy" I whisper to him "not as much as you Phoebs" he says "you're enough to stop my heart gel" he says.

We exchange our vows our families looking on there's a sadness but relief too I suppose that my Dad isn't here I just wish he could see how much me and Jimmy love each other and how happy we are but no he was a stubborn old bugger and always would be.
"By the power invested me I can now declare that you are husband and wife you may now kiss your bride Jimmy lad" the vicar says smiling at us both. Reverend Simms had known me and Jimmy since we were kids it was lovely to have him as part of our day. My husband, my Jimmy looks deep into my eyes almost taking my
breath away placing his fingers gently on my face "Phoebs" he whispers to me before he leans forward and kisses me so softly so gently it's enough to take my feet from underneath me. "My girl" he says and I smile at him not letting him go as everyone erupts into applause as we turn around and face everyone.

We head back down the aisle arm in arm as my Mum grabs my hand as passing giving it a squeeze "well done love" she says to me. We get to the church door and Vi runs passed us with some confetti throwing it over us making us both laugh as we have our photograph taken I'm already picturing that on our mantle piece in our little home.
"Are you happy Mrs Flanagan" Jimmy asks me "I'm the happiest girl in the world" I beam at him and he smiles "didn't I promise I'd make you happy gel" he says "yes you did" I tell him "I love you Jimmy" I tell him "I love you Phoebs" he says back

Jimmy's Point of View

Blimey could my Phoebs look any more beautiful than she does today how the hell did I get this lucky I don't deserve her I really don't. I know deep down it had hurt her everything that had happened with her Dad but she tried to hide it. She was so excited about our new little house and so was I. I couldn't wait to take her there tonight lock the door away from the world and have her to myself, to light the fire make it cosy and warm then take her to our new bed and make sweet love to her show her just how much I treasured her my own darling.

We headed back to the village hall not far from Phoebe's Dads pub for our wedding breakfast. The room was decorated so pretty and we had a lovely little wedding cake that Phoebe's Aunty Lilly had made for us, the look on her face as she gazed at me when we cut it was so sweet how could I not love this girl, I had always loved her even before I knew what love was I remember her when she was about thirteen we were at my parents house it was my birthday and they had left us alone we were sat in front of the fire in my room with only the light from some candles breaking the darkness, her hair was longer than it was now and she had it in a plait reaching half way down her back, the light from the fire showed off it's deep red color, her skin so soft, her eyes sparkling that night I felt something deep within me the sight of her gave me an ache deep inside an ache that I carried for the next ten years a yearning for her that I had for so long kept from her .

"Congratulations you two me and your Mam are so happy for you" My dad says to us "Oh Jimmy son I'm so proud of you" Mum says "oh don't Mum you'll make me cry" I tell her "thank you for everything Mum" Phoebe tells Mum this is now what she calls her "Our pleasure love" she says to her "We always knew you two should be together" she says "Come on Marg I could do with another ale" Dad says causing Mum to pull a face making us laugh

"Phoebs would you like to go for a walk" I say to her wanting her to myself for a while "yeah I would love to" she says "get your coat darling it's cold out there" I tell her. We walk hand in hand in the moonlight the Night air catching us both it makes Phoebes nose go red it's so cute. "It's been a lovely day" she says "I'm so happy" and she is I can see that "I am too Phoebs but there's something I have to tell you" I sit her down on a bench as hold her hands "what's wrong Jimmy" she asks "I didn't want to do this today but I have to, I've had a telegram to go to Portsmouth to start my posting" I tell her the face she makes echoes the pain in my heart "When do you have to go" she asks "the day after tomorrow Phoebs" and she lifts her hands up to her face and begins to weep "Oh no Jimmy" she sobs "But it's going to be alright darling, I'll be home for Christmas" I tell her "but that's weeks away" she cries "I know my love I know and I hate the idea of being away from you for a second but we have no choice our country needs me I'm doing this for us Phoeb's for our future" I say "I know I know it's just......." she starts "just what" I ask "things are different now" she says "I know we're married now" I say smiling "it's not just us though" she says "Phoebs what do you mean" I ask her she's baffling me a little bit "You know I've been feeling a bit funny lately" she says and I nod "well there's a reason for it" she says I'm lost not sure what she means "that's what I mean it's not just the two of us anymore" she says and she puts her hand to her tummy she means oh my god my face must look shocked and she panics "oh Jimmy you don't want it do you" she says and I take her hands I know what she means oh Jesus and I laugh "wait Phoebs" I say and she looks up "You're gonna have a baby" and she just nods her head "really" I laugh some more my voice so shaky as I take her in my arms letting out the biggest sigh as I say "Oh Phoebs my sweet Phoebs" I hug her so tight as I realise what I'm doing "oh god darling sorry did I hurt you I don't want to hurt the baby" I say my mind is racing she laughs at me "you won't my lovely" she says "how do you know" I ask her "our Violet told me she said we can still you know" and she does that cute little nodding motion as we never really say it "how does she know........ well" I say knowing Violet "Best not ask" she says as I brush my hand over her cheek "Phoebs it's too cold out here for you come on we need to get inside I need to look after you" I say she's laughing again "don't fuss" she says "I'm not I just need to make sure you are both ok" I say this was my life's aim now to protect my wife and protect my child and I would fight anyone who even came close to harming them.