Cynosure [l.h]

Chapter 26

Luke had been acting weird since we found out the sex of the babies.. and that there was two of them. He would stay out for longs periods of time without telling me why and when I would ask he would get extremely pissy with me. He would scream at Melody over little things and just was not himself.

Today was one of his days. Melody had accidentally spilled cereal and Luke freaked out. He was horrifying.

"DAMMIT MELODY ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID?" Luke screamed at her, tears instantly welled up in her eyes, but Luke didn't back down.

"You're even more of an idiot than your slut of a mother." He spat.

My heart sank at the words, I pulled myself up from the couch and grabbed Melody from Luke's hurtful words. He didn't say anything as I began packing our bags. Melody was lightly sobbing as I picked her up and began walking out of the door. I turned back once to see Luke with his arms crossed, not a single word left his lips as I took Melody and our belongings and left his apartment.

We headed to my parents house as Melody's soft sobs filled the empty street. The tiny pitter patter of rain whispered in my ear, after an hour and a half of walking I finally arrived at my parents house. I knocked loudly on the door knowing since it was such a late hour they would be fast asleep. I heard loud footsteps and a slight grunt.

"Who's there?" Dad asked viciously.

"Alayna, Dad please open up." I replied slightly louder than I should have.

I heard a few loud clicks and the sleepy figure in front of me.

"What the hell are you doing here Laynie?" He asked allowing Melody and I to step in.

"Luke is uhm, he's using again Dad and he has been so horrible to Mel." I said feeling tears pricking my eyes.

"Dammit Laynie, you never learn do you." He said embracing me into a hug. His brown hair was graying ever so slightly, as his scruff rubbed up against my shoulder.

"Dad I love him so much, but he can't stay clean." I began sobbing uncontrollably as I squeezed my Dad tighter than I should have.

"I know you think you love him, but I promise Laynie, he is one of so many. I know he is Mel's and these babies father, but that doesn't mean he has to be apart of their lives. You know? It would be really nice if he was clean for Melody because she is obsessed with him, but there is nothing you can do about it. You have to decide what is best for these kids." Dad said ever so gently. 

He finally pulled out of our hug and guided me up the stairs into my old bedroom. I laid Melody's sleeping figure onto the bed and throwing our things onto the floor. I shut the door and sat on the bed next to Mel. I only wish I could have got her out sooner..

Luke's P.o.v

I watched her leave, her eyes meeting mine as she took Melody's sobbing body out into the rain. She didn't even say she was leaving. I guess that is how you know someone is truly finished with you. They have nothing more to say to you, about anything.

I thought about running after her, but really what was the point? I couldn't give her what she wanted. Alayna wanted me to be some super star dad and husband. I was an addict and I needed help.

I grabbed a couple of shirts and jean, shoving them into a bag. I began writing my goodbye letter to Alayna. I couldn't just disappear without a trace could be.

Alayna,

I am so sorry for being so shitty lately. As you can probably already assume I started using again... I am so sorry Layna, but my will power isn't as strong as my temptation. I am going to rehab, after I looked at myself and saw what I did to Melody, I knew I was too fucked up to stay like this. I obviously can;t handle this situation on my own.

Tell Melody I love her so much and Alayna I love you almost as much as I love Mel.. Please don't let her or those babies forget about me. Maybe once I'm cleaned up we can meet for coffee and talk about the kids, but right now I need to clean myself up for you.

I love you, Luke.

I finished writing and grabbed my keys. I needed to get started right now or I was never going to actually go through with it. I pinned the note onto the fridge and ran out of the house..

Alayna was right. I'm toxic.