Cynosure [l.h]

Chapter 12.

Luke's P.o.v

I woke up to the sound of my buzzing phone.

I leaned over and grabbed it off the night stand.

It was Michael.

I immediately jumped out of Alayna's hold and into the bathroom.

"What!" I hissed under my breath.

"I have your order man"

"Okay I'll come get it later, just hold it for me okay?"

"Can do man, see ya later"

I hung up and flushed the toilet incase Alayna had woken up.

I walked back over to her bedroom and stared into it to see her still asleep.

She was truly gorgeous.

I heard Melody's door creak open and saw her head peak around the corner.

"Morning Princess" I said smiling at her walking towards her.

"Morning Daddy" she said rubbing her eyes.

I picked her up and rested her on my hip as she latched her arms around my neck.

"I'm hungry" she mumbled into my neck.

"Me too, lets get some cereal yeah?"

I walked carefully down the stairs and into the kitchen, sitting Melody on the counter.

"Where's the cereal Mel?"

"The cabinet next to the sink"

I grabbed some of the chocolate flavored cereal for Melody and myself.

"Why does Mummy sleep so long?"

"Because she works hard all day"

"All she does is stay with me"

"You're a handful darling" I said laughing at her.

If she only knew how truly hard her mum worked.

"Being with me all day is fun"

"Yes it is, but sometimes you're too much fun" I said sitting her cereal next to her.

"Whatever you say Dad"

............

I just got done at Alayna's, she was less than pleased when I told her I needed to go to "work"

I pulled up to Marty's and saw Michael sitting outside.

I pulled my car over to the curb and got out.

"Hey Mikey."

"Hey Luke, here's your stuff."

"Thanks man" I said shaking his hand but really I was slipping him a 100.

"You wanna come to my place?" He asked.

"Yeah man"

"Okay let's go" I said.

...

We arrived at Michael's apartment and it was a wreck. Beer bottles everywhere and cigarette buts scattered across the room.

I sat down on the grey couch and ripped open my pouch and snorted it straight into my nose, instantly feeling the extreme sense of nirvana.

Ironic huh?

I popped open my cigarette pack and pulled one out.

I lit it up and felt the toxic smoke taking its toll on my lungs.

"What do you have Mike?"

"Uppers, Downers, anything really"

I stuck my hand out as he filled it with the mysterious pills.

I felt great.

If Alayna ever found out she'd be devastated, but its not about her anymore.

"I saw you with your kid last week"

"Really?".

"Yeah she looks like you"

"I get that alot." I said laughing.

Every bad feeling I had ever had melted away, every worry, every care, just gone.

Michael had passed out and I was higher than a kite.

I felt my phone vibrating in my poket I immediately dug for it.

"Hello?"

"Hey Luke" Fuck its my mum.

"Hey mum"

"What are you up to?"

Snorting drugs and popping pills what about you?

"Just hanging out with one of my mates"

"Well can you come over to help your dad with some house stuff?"

"Uhm can it wait til tomorrow?"

"No it has to be today, please Luke?'

"Fine I'll be there in 20 minutes".

I did one more line and got off the couch and shook Michael.

"Huh?" he said groggy.

"Sorry mate, I'm taking off, I'll lock your door on my way out"

"Okay see ya"

I hopped into my car, hopefully they wouldn't notice.

.......

I arrived at my parents house and I just walked in.

"Hey Luke"

"Hello Mum" I said smiling.

She was unloading dishes from the dishwasher. A very mum thing to do.

"Were you crying or something?" she asked.

"No why?"

"Nothing you keep sniffling and your eyes are red." She said simply.

But then it clicked.

"Oh my god Luke" she said dropping the plates she was carrying.

"LUKE WHAT DID YOU DO"

"What are you talking about?"

"I KNOW WHAT YOU DID" She was crying, I cant stand it when she cries.

"Oh my god Luke" she said walking over and hugging me.

"Mum I'm okay"

"No youre not, dont lie to me" She said sobbing into my tshirt.

"I- I- Mum I-"

"Shhhh baby its okay" she said gripping me even tighter.

"I tried, but then Alayna wouldn't let me share custody with Melody and I went to drink and I saw Michael who asked me if I wanted anything and I said yes mum I can't stop" I was full blown sobbing. I was obviously coming down from my high.

"I don't want you to die, you're killing yourself" she said gripping me even tighter to the point of squeezing me.

I have never seen such a scared and horrified look on my mums face. I did this, I made her this way because I can't stop to think about what my actions are doing to other people.