February 15 2021
Nessa's pov
Swayla
2pm
I'm in Josh's room right now, while he is out filming.Still nothings changed but my feelings.I'm confused very fucking confused.Jaden and I have been working very hard on la di die and my feelings are very weird to say the least.It feels like when Josh and me first stared dating but just stronger.
I don't know, I shouldn't feel like this about him and I tried really hard not to. After he drove me home in December I've been getting butterflies around him and I know that cringy but I don't know why or how.I love Josh which sucks because he is a shitty "Boyfriend".But here I am in the person I loves room thinking about his best friends and all the memories we shared already.
Flashback December 19 2020
In the studio
11:00pm
Me and Jaden have been working all day,when I say all day I mean we got here at 9.We are getting board and you can definitely tell "I'm hungryyyyyy" the boy wined, "let's go get something to eat." "I'm not hungry" I respond like always even though I am starving but a text I got from josh this morning that made not want to eat.
Josh
You need to watch
your weight I don't
want to date a fat-ass
and by the looks of it
I already am
Nessa
Ok
Josh
What was that
Nessa
Yes daddy
Imagine "loving" someone and that's the first thing you say to them in the morning. "Ness I've been with you all fucking day and I have not seen you eat anything"says the rockstar breaking me out of my thoughts "I'm just not hungry nothing much to it Jaden" I semi yell "Nessa I don't know much about your life but I don't think that you starving yourself would do anything" i was shocked that he said that "i-i- I'm" I try to force out but all that comes out is stutters. "You know you gorgeous right,if that's what this is about" he says melting my heart.But of course my sensitive ass just starts crying.I burry my head in my knees wishing I could just disappear.I feel strong arms wrap around me,I cling on to him like my life depends on it.He whispers in my ears even though I can't make out what he's trying to say.After a while he pulls my face to look in his eyes.I've never noticed how pretty they are and how lost you can get in them. "Let's get smoothies instead of food,because you do need something in you"he says "that's what he said" i say letting out a soft laugh trying to lighten the mood.He just rolls his eyes while lightly laughing. "Ok let's go what your favorite smoothie" "I love strawberry but when I can't get just strawberry then strawberry and banana" "what about you" "me t-
"Why are are you so smiley" josh ask me breaking me out of my thoughts. "Nothing just thinking" I respond hoping he doesn't push further into it.He doesn't. "Did you finish the song I miss see you all day" yea right "yes we can put it out after we film the music video" "can I hear" instead of responding I pull out my phone and play the song
Okay
Does it rain in California?
Only dream I've ever known
Will they love you when you're famous?
Swear you'll never be alone
Hope someday I'll find nirvana
I'll be looking down below
I'll be dead at twenty-seven
Only nine more years to go
I got a bully in my head
Fake love, fake friends
I was broken when you left
Now you hear me everywhere you go
La da di, oh la di da
Gonna be a superstar
Be the girl you used to know
Playing on the radio
La da di, oh la di die
Loving me is suicide
I'm a dreamer, I'm on fire
La da di, run for your life
Oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh, ah-ah-ah-ah
Yeah-yeah, I'm jxdn, I'm jxdn
Said I'm gonna be a rockstar, yeah yeah yeah
Told her I don't want a war, yeah yeah yeah
I don't see me going far, yeah yeah yeah
That's what happens when I fall apart
All of me wants all of you
But I'm far away and I can't choose
Got a lotta lessons that I need to learn
Got a lotta lessons
My depression and misconceptions
And all the mistakes that lead to lessons
My depression, it makes me question
My depression, it makes me question
La da di, oh la di da
Gonna be a superstar
Be the girl you used to know
Playing on the radio
La da di, oh la di die
Loving me is suicide
I'm a dreamer, I'm on fire
La da di, run for your life
Does it rain in California
Where the angels cry for me?
Want the drugs that taste like candy
And blood diamonds in my teeth
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
La da di, oh la di da
Gonna be a superstar
Be the girl you used to know
Playing on the radio
La da di, oh la di die
Loving me is suicide
I'm a dreamer, I'm on fire
La da di, run for your life
Yeah, I'm gonna be a superstar
"When are you gonna film it"he questions "I don't know I think today when Jaden and mads get back because I also want to talk to him about when he wants to release it" "oh ok"
February 26 2021
Nessa's pov
10pm
Home
La di die is already out but nothing else has changed.So after I wrap my newly opened cuts I lay down after I few minutes I hear a knock on my door,I go to open it and I see Jaden he looks a little to happy. "Me and Mads broke up fully" He says as soon as I ask him why he look so happy "again my question still stands why are you so happy" I giggle he looks me dead in my eyes "because I can do this" he responds as he kissed me with so much lust but you could also feel more emotion I don't know how to explain it.I kissed him back yes he's joshes best friend but josh treats me terribly and I'm fully single.
He pushes me back while closing my front door with his foot it's automatic locking.He keeps pushing me back until I hit the counter after a few minutes of that he picks me up and puts me on top of the counter so I'm now sitting I wrap my arms around his neck.He bites my bottom lip hard a whine but I also found pleasure in it causing me to moan. "Oh look at my little slut whinging and moaning for her boyfriends best friend and her best friend's ex boyfriend"he says grabbing my ass hard cause me to moan again "I'm am not a slut and definitely not yours" I could see the anger in his eyes "what was that" he asked while grabbing my neck and squeezing not enough to hurt but enough to give me pleasure. "You heard me" I respond. He doesn't respond but brings me upstairs to my room closing and locking the door he put me on the bed and we continue to make out he pulled on my hoodie asking to remove which I allow now I'm in my short shorts and thong I didn't have a bra,he quickly removes my shorts and groans at my underwear choice.He puts me over his lap and takes him belt off "ok your gonna count for me..ok?" I look at him with fear in my eyes "don't worry my little good girl this won't hurt" he says rubbing my ass with the belt "that much" he says as he brings the belt down hard on my right ass cheek my moans can be heard "did I tell you you could moan no the fuck I didn't.You ask for permission to do anything with me and I said count now that's 10 more"Slap I feel another one this time one my left ass cheek "one" I say trying not to moan "one what" "one Jaden" "nope try again" "one baby" "no I'm daddy now do you understand" he says coming down to my ear level. "Yes daddy I understand" why is that so fucking hot I hate when I have to call Josh daddy but with Jaden I love it already. After my spanking he takes my underwear off and puts me on my gaming chair which hurt my ass from the 31 spankings.He asking if I have any toys and I tell him where my no hand vibrater is.He grabs it and comes back spreads my legs on the chair so Im sitting fully exposed to him. He probably can't even pleasure me that's why he needs the toy,I laugh at my own thoughts "what's so funny pretty bitch"he asked "just knowing that you talk a big game but need a toy to pleasure me"if looks could kill I would be dead let's just say that. He comes very close to my face puts the toy on and with a straight clam face says "ok" his minty but weed smelled breath fanning over my face.He sits down at the edge of my bed and pulled the chair closer he stripped full naked and sat back down.I look at his dick and my eyes widen he notices and laughed teasingly at me "ok let's be a good girl and maybe just maybe you'll be able to test you theory of me not being able to pleasure you and if not more spankings" "yes daddy" "ok turn your little toy on to the lowest setting" he says as I listen even though those spanks were pleasuring I don't want anymore and I really want to feel his dick in me I bit my lip trying not to moan but I really need to "can..I ...moan please da..ddy" I say breaking my sentence every time trying not to moan "yes why not I really want to hear how much of a slut you are" instead of trying to correct him again I just moan.
Y'all are gonna hate me just a little bit because of the next chapter lol
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Time to let go-a naden story
RomanceNessa Barrett thought she and Josh Richards would work out but what happens when she finally realizes that she deserves better But better was found in his best friend and her best frienemies on again off again boy friend Will she choose her happines...
