Break The Barrier | Tommyinnit

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its alright, I've got you. (happy ending)

My head is aching and every inch of my skin is cold. I open my eyes, the blue curtains the stench of sickness. All of it comes flooding back to me. I'm, alive. My eyes wander, searching for him. I find him sprawled out on a chair, soft snores escaping his lips. 

My head falls back onto the pillow behind me and I feel as though I can finally breathe. I watch Tommy sleep and it looks as though he can feel it too. Relief floods his face and I've never loved something more in my life.

the opening of a door knocks me out of my trance. Will's messy brown hair comes into view and through the never ending ache of my body, I smile. Will turns from the door a look of stress being replaced with utter joy.

"Iris," My eyes are still locked on Tommy and I smile even more when he stirs at the mention of me. Tommy wakes up slowly, not yet noticing the eyes on him. He opens his eyes and immediately he looks to me. 

He gets up slowly walking towards me. No words slip as he incases me in his arms. "Its alright, I've got you." I sink into his hold forgetting everyone else in the world.

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Move on. (alternative ending)

She lays still, her body unwavering. If I didn't watch her struggle to live I might just think she was sleeping. I wanted so badly to believe she was sleeping.

I called out for her every night. I watched as the world moved on without her. How could they be so content with her gone? Did the absence of her presence not make them sick to their stomach. The entirety of the internet was asking where I went.

Nobody knew the heart aching sight I had to endure. To see the love of my life limp, with no pulse. I didn't face my problems, I didn't show up to her funeral. I knew that her so called family would be there.

Mourning for someone they never truly cared for. Will came to check on me every now and then. He told me he had something important to show me. I haven't cried once, I still don't really believe she's gone.

She had so much to offer, yet she wasn't given a chance. I get dressed to meet Will he asked to meet at a local coffee shop down the road. I throw on old tattered shoes and my Sony headphones.

I play her playlist. Will says it would help me move on if I didn't remind myself of her all the time. I disagree, by playing her favorite songs and eating her favorite foods it feels like she's still here. I fear if I don't remind myself of her I'll forget everything about her.

What if her birthday rolls around and I've forgotten her favorite flowers. What if I remember she likes roses and lily's, but forget she doesn't like them together.

What if I forget which candles and incense smells like her. I don't want to forget. I cant move on. I refuse to. I sigh when I spot Will sitting next to the coffee shop window. This was the first time I've left my apartment. I didn't really see a reason in getting up.

I enter the shop and a bell chimes from above my head. Will looks at me from behind a coffee cup and waves me over. I sit across from him, leg bouncing under the table. "What did you want to show me."

Will seems slightly taken aback by my bluntness but ignores it. He takes one last sip from the coffee, steam clouding his glasses, he plops the cup on the table, slowly. I grow impatient at his sloth like movements.

"Well, Iris, wrote a letter for you. She wanted me to get it to you." Will pauses to take another sip of coffee. My slight annoyance is thrown out the window when he mentions Iris. I lean closer towards him.

"She didn't think she'd be able to talk to you. I didn't read the letter, but I just thought you should read it incase she wrote things that she didn't have a chance to tell you." I purse my lips, "Can I see it then?" Will nods pulling a phone from his coat pocket.

"Its in her notes app," He slides the phone across the table to me. I admire the Minecraft phone case that she stole from me. A small smile tugs at my lips, I turn on the phone. The lock-screen appears and a password comes up.

I frown, "It needs a password." Will perks up. "Oh, yeah. Its just twenty-one, all lowercase." My frown deepens. She wanted to go to NYC at 21, she wouldn't shut up about it.

I remember offering to bring her, she said she had to go at 21, no younger, no older. I put in the password and look through her apps until I find the one I'm looking for. I'm met with one note. "Tommy", it reads in bold letters.

Tommy

I recently read a fantasy book about twin flames. Twin flames, to put it simply are two souls that cannot detach from one another. Not even death can separate them. I'd like to think we're twin flames. We will find each other again, maybe not in this lifetime but in the next. No matter how hard you try you cant get rid of me. I am the wind that glides over your face on a hot day and the two pound you find on the side of the street. I am the small things that give you the smallest ounce of happiness. When you look into someone's eyes and it feels like your starring beyond their soul, just know that, that is where I am. Beyond the soul. I will wait for you, in this lifetime and the next. -Iris

Also I'm really pissed that the queen is going to outlive me.

I laugh, tears flowing down my face. Will stares at me intently, a saddened smile adorned his lips. "What 'she say?" He asks, one hand supporting his face and mushing it up slightly.

I wipe the tears from my eyes and place my head in my hands. "She said she's pissed the queen outlived her," Will bursts out laughing, "Really?" I nod my head which is still stuffed in my hands. Life isn't so hard now that she's gone 'cause she isn't really gone.