(BNB AU Story) 'We'll help you...but at a cost Bosip...'

Chapter One: It's so lonely here now...

(This will be a summary of GinHaku's video)
[Link(I'M SO SORRY IF IT DOESNT WORK-):

https://youtu.be/jXET_RT20gw ]

Bosip's POV:
Every day...feels so quiet...and lonely. Bob's happy with his new girlfriend,Bella. I'm close with Bella,yes,but will that ever change that I forever will be jealous that Bob loves her? No. Speaking of that though...it's why I'm feeling so...lonely...Bob just spends time with Bella every day now.

I can see why Bob loves Bella though...like he doesn't need me...she smiles so much more wider than me...she makes him so much more happier then what I've ever done for Bob. Even though I love Bob so much, I've hurt him sometimes...but then again,there is this weird thing in my head that gives me the feeling 'I don't need anyone else but him...' about Bob kinda thing...y'know?

When I heard of Bella and Bob...dating...I promised myself so many times I wouldn't take it so personally...but the feeling of Bob with someone new...somehow...burns me,so much it makes me want to break...and cry...I have no idea why. Is it because Bob is with someone else...not me...? Maybe it's because Bella is so much better than me like another version of me that Bob can love...? It may be all those things...but nobody cares...except myself of course,being the idiot I am.

Every time I see Bob and Bella together being their lovey-dovey selves to one another,I smile to hide the truth...but I feel myself leaving,because something in my heart just speaks...I was always happier with that cube. I feel myself sometimes sitting in the corner of me and Bob's room,always being reminded of the time we spend together and Bob himself. I always told myself the words, "You're happier...aren't you...?"

I need Bob in my life but...I know that Bella definitely deserves him more...more than me until my end...but...I'm still in love with him. He's happier with her...so why can't I go so they can be happy? At one point,Bobal,one of the Bob Gang told me while we were sitting on the couch...I'll feel the same way with someone else. My only response however was, "I can smile and hide the truth...but one thing isn't going to change,I am always happier with Bob. But I guess if he's happy with Bella,I guess I'll have to go out like a neglected idiot I tell ya..." Then I stood up,turned away and walked to the shared room I had with Bob.

I began packing my things to leave...nothing was getting better right now. So it was either now or possibly never ever...I have to leave. It feels awful,I don't want to...but if Bob and Bella are so happy together...if I just go,they'll be fine,because at this point...who needs me anymore..? I placed my personal belongings(the ones I could fit into my handbag),while I was doing so however I saw a love letter that I had made a while ago originally for Bob. I gave a bitter and sad look before dropping it...it's pointless at this point isn't it...?

The letter fell to the carpet floor...as I turned away and began to neaten my bad strap. Something in my mind then asked if I should really do this...this might not be the best choice,but it's the only choice. Bob's happy,Bella's happy and the gang will be happy. I guess it's the only option I had so I bitterly walked out,ready to go. [Now to fanon this scene because THIS REST DIDNT HAPPEN-] I walked out of the door of my room to see Bowaev and Bobal talking,as soon as they made eye contact with me,they stared. "Bosip? Where are you going...?" The younger asked with a confused look on his face, Bobal giving the same look but with more of a furrowed brow. [Alright fanon scene over...for the most part for now...-]

(Ending it right there! Can't be bothered to do the rest of the vid because it's like 1 AM at where I'm writing this...but I'm sorry if this is too sad...I'm an angst kinnie so-)
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