Kim Taehyung one shots

Faith and Trust

I am sitting in the living room, on the couch, listening to music while Taehyung is sitting beside me, doing something on his phone. I had just come back from hospital and had dinner. I had put up some music after dinner to just relax and unwind. Tae came a little after and sat beside me. I gesture Taehyung to put his head in my lap so that I can run my fingers through his hair. I like doing it sometimes. He puts his head on my knee .
"I love music. It might be the best remedy for everything. We really should keep a few hours aside every week to just listen to music." I say to him.
He humms in response.

Few minutes pass like this. I notice Taehyung looking at me continuously in my peripheral vision. I look down at his face and ask him, "What? Is something wrong?"
He turns around so that he is facing me completely and looks up at me.
"Why haven't you said anything or asked me any questions regarding that yet?" He asks me, looking at my face.
I lean my head back again, "I didn't feel that there's any need to."
"How do you know what am I referring to?"
A chuckle leaves my throat.
"Just like you know that I am aware of the situation already."
A sigh escapes his lips. He turns sideways and buries his face in my stomach and holds me by my waist.
I caress his hair again and tell him, "It's okay. Don't worry. You are already worried about the professional aspect of it, you don't have to add one more thing by worrying if it affected me."
He gets up suddenly and turns my head towards him holding my cheeks.
"That's like last thing on my mind right now. You should atleast say something. Ask me if there's any truth in it or atleast tell me that you trust me. You didn't say a single word."
I laugh at his response.
"Doesn't me not saying anything mean that I trust you?"
"Not really."
"Want me to tell you how I look at these situations?"
He nods.
"Who are you with every single night? Who do you come back to every single day?"
"You."
"Exactly. If I have you in my arms every single night, after everything you go through during the day, then I personally don't feel that I have any reason to be insecure or doubt you."
I pause a little trying to phrase my next sentence.
"It's like, you know, umm.. as long as I know that you are with me, emotionally, mentally or physically, at the end of every single day, I trust you. People say a lot of things. If i start focussing on them, I cannot live my life. I cannot live our life. "
Tae looks at me like he isn't able to believe what he is hearing.
"You really do trust me?" He asks me.
"Can I be selfish here with my answer?"
He nods.
"To be honest, I trust my instinct more than I trust you. Unless, it is You, who gives me a reason to doubt you, your action or your behaviour that creates a doubt in my mind, I really do not care what other people say. I won't let anyone else put that seed of doubt in me." I smile at what I am about to say.
"If you fuck up, then that is when this shit is truly fucked up." I laugh. I do not usually swear but it is fun sometimes because it puts that emphasis in the phrase.
He also laughs a little at my phrase.
"Should I be mad or should I be in awe of the person that you are that you trust yourself more than me?" He laughs.
I put on my best smile, squish my cheeks and blink my eyes at him, "Awe!!"
He engulfs me in his hug.
"But I still want to clarify this with you. I don't want these type of conversations to ever go undiscussed. Even if we have nothing to say, I want us to atleast touch it so that it confirms for both of us that we are still on the same page." He says to me.
I nod. I understand what he is saying. That's definitely healthy way to deal with this.

"Okay." I pull out of his hug. "So tell me.. Who started this dating rumor? I read somewhere where people are saying this is just to distract audience from your new album release."
"Yeah. Our company looked into it. Some person put up that photoshopped picture. Just to coincide with that Jeju trip of ours for the shoot."
"Oh.. is it gonna affect the comeback?" I ask concerned about the aftermath.
"Nah. It's like a thing everytime we announce a comeback. Some memeber or the other gets roped in."
"Oh.." I nod.
"Company will deal with it on the legal level. I don't think they are planning to release any public statement also. "
"Hmm. Yeah. Why give it any momentum when it doesn't have any."
He hmms in response.
"How are YOU feeling?" I ask him pointedly. I'm worried about him.
"I don't know. I don't like it when my name's gets roped in for no apparent reason. I mean, it's not fair, you know. I have every right to live my life however I want. And I'm not even doing anything like that. I mean, if something that I actually did, would have been publicized, then I would have gotten it but I didn't even do anything. How can someone just make up a lie?"
I caress his back trying to calm him down. I get where he is coming from. It must be frustrating and exhausting.
"Forget it, no? Nobody really cares about stuff like this anymore. It's live and let live. Few people will always come out every time who will do anything to sabotage stuff. Let's just not focus on them."
I pull him into a hug. He rests his face on my chest.
"Though, that picture made me wanna go to Jeju Island with you. It'd be nice to have a real picture of you and me like that." He mumbles.
I laugh at his statement.
"You're crazy. And start another rumor. This time, it would be truth, not a rumour." I tell him.
A big sigh escapes his lips. "Ahh.. I hate this. Can we seriously not go public with this? With our relationship?"
"Are you kidding me? I'll die." I look at him dramatically. "Your fans are your fans. You handle them. I have enough patients in my hospital to take care of already. Let's not merge our professional lives, okay?"
He laughs at my statement.
"My fans? They have a name, okay? ARMY. Best people in this world. Huh."
I laugh at his defensive statement.
I raise my hands in surrender. "Sorry. That was very wrong of me to say. And I do agree. I still cannot believe sometimes when I read online, ARMY can really make a difference whenever they set their eyes on a goal."
Tae has this proud look on his face on hearing this statement.
"And, by the way, are you not our fan? Do you not like what I do? Hawww.. that's so bad." He asks me.
I put my finger on my chin as if I'm actually thinking about the question.
Tae suddenly tackles me and pulls me with him so that we're lying on the couch now.
"You're even thinking about it. Not fair."
"I was pretending to think about it." I laugh. I put my chin over his chest and look at him adoringly.
"I am your fan. Truly. A proud fan. The things that you guys do, the difference that you have been able to make in this world, your talent, your sincerity, your hard work, I am a fan of every single thing."
I continue, "You know, i never said this to you, but sometimes i do think wherever I'm in a situation where it feels too hard to go on further, if BTS would have given up here or not. It gives me strength. And I'm 100% sure that you give the same strength to countless other people too. So, I'm beyond proud of you."
Tae looks down while I'm speaking, shy because of compliments. His smile has returned. I peck him once on his lips.

I get up from the couch and hold my hand out for him to grab.
"Let's go sleep. I'm tired. Music made me sleepy."
He takes my hand and lifts me up koala style. I wrap my legs around his waist.
"I love you." He whispers.
I place a kiss on his neck. "I know." I close my eyes and breathe in his fragrance. It's very quickly becoming my favourite scent in the entire world.