The Story I Never Told Anyone

chapter 2 left without a goodbye.

Saying hi without a goodbye.

I feel sad as if I want to cry loudly.

But I can't.

It's like screaming.

But no one can hear you.

I'm writing a goodbye letter.

When we know someone is going to leave.

They turn a chapter and walk away from the page.

Thank you for the memories.

Thank you for teaching me to always tell someone how you feel.

Thank you for believing in me.

I remember when we met.

We were in 8th grade in math class.

You were sitting by yourself.

I went up to you and said hey I'm steph let's be friends.

From that day on we became best friends.

You left without a goodbye.

Oh how I think you won't come back till, it's fall again.

Not even fall.

When the leaves fall and change into different colors.

We wanted a reason why you left.

Not a goodbye.

Not a goodnight.

Not even a farewell.

It's been a couple of rough days.

My tears have dropped onto the clear floor.

Oh how the days turned into grey.

Oh how the days turned into a hollowed tree.

From the black hollowness it breaks into many 100 little pieces.

My dear friend left without a goodbye.

No he's not dead.

He just left because he doesn't want to hurt anyone.

Pushed us away in the dark.

But what happens if leaving us, hurts us even more than he wanted it to be.

I have a mix of feelings.

I don't know if I should be mad or upset.

U left the gc.

We called the gc the daycare.

Funny name right.

I remember why we called it that.

We call it that because no matter what or no matter how things got tough we would always.

I mean always be there for each other.

And that's what family does.

Were not even friends anymore when you came into my life and stayed for four fucking years.

You became family.

The GC is my other family.

Family isn't only by blood, it's by bonds as well.

U broke that promise.

And all I can seem to do is cry and sit in class and do work and then lay my head down.

This is far greater than pain.

Than hurt.

The gc thinks you'll come back.

A part of me knows you will.

The other part knows that you won't.

The gc did say if u didn't come back we would have to move on.

What if I don't want to move on?

And just forget about this friendship.

If you do come back.

Well gosh I know I'll still feel hurt.

You did leave after all without saying anything.

So yes I have the right to be mad and upset.

After everything we have been through.

And the GC said if you don't come back.

We have to move on without you.

And I don't wanna do that.

I think I'll still feel hurt either way.

But yes I will forgive you.

But also not forgive u.

Broken promises and soon to be broken hearts for the gc.

Only time will tell.

I always thought that phrase sounded completely bullshit.

But screw it.

I shall say it.

Time will only tell.