The Story I Never Told Anyone

Chapter 15 meh

You're probably wondering is this another sad poem about

Losing your best friend? Yes it is. I've been told to forget it because

We kinda knew in our little tiny hearts he would leave. The funny part is I thought

You would come back. When I moved here and when we first met I thought this

Powerful bond we have is going to last a lifetime. But I was wrong, I guess. Today

All I can seem to do is feel how I feel. And lately nothing has been the same since you left. You put on your instagram is great to leave people behind and some crap like that.

Before you didn't have that in your bio. Now you do, which makes it feel like you're pointing a finger at us. When we only were kind to you and we were there for you.

I remember so many things that we used to do. Our hangouts and our funny jokes we would make about everything. You know Tom and Jerry, our bond was like that without the hating and trying to kill each other half the time. All I ever seem to do now is just find a way not to think or let the memories pop out like a snake trying to wave it in a hole. I don't wanna miss you. Yesterday I was going to check up on you only to find out you blocked me. You know how many people have hurt me before. This hurt even more like a bitch. I started to sob like a baby that fell over something. I called lulu and she saw me sobbing for 2 hours and a half hours as we talked about it. I showed up to school today trying not to cry. While I was in the car with my mother. She was trying to cheer me up. But all I could really do was look out the window and our memories started to flood back to my mind. I sat there trying to put on a brave face and not to cry but it was too late the tear came out of my eyes as I got off and went through the doors. I went to the cafeteria and I sat there playing music. And then when I sat by myself I really tried not to cry. You know when someone passes away you have that pain like you're dying too.and you seem to seem like your whole world is falling down because of that person.I feel that very pain when you left and i don't understand why i feel this way. You were my best friend but you were like a brother to me. Today I know I'm going to break down because I've tried to be this tough person. Not for me but for the daycare. I'm a ticking clock and any minute I could just start crying. I would hold you when things go wrong. I just sit there holding my breath. You used to tell me to let go and breathe in and out when I saw a crowd of people in the hallways. But now I just hold my breath so I don't remember you.