The Story I Never Told Anyone

Chapter 17 the night times

I went to bed early today.

Layed down and looked up at the ceiling.

I saw my thoughts come out in one second.

Clearly reading the words on the wall.

Felt like the whole room could be my wonderful getaway.

A dream that could have been real.

I could sit in mr.gages class and overthink 100 million things.

Or any class in that matter.

Over and over again until it makes sense.

Until everything is clear in the book.

Even until everything can stop moving all over the place.

Like you're driving a car and any second you can crash.

When I overthink I could imagine a track and with my Chevrolet Corvette 1962.

The more I overthink the more it gets out of control.

The more I'm so very close to crashing my car into the flipping river.

All I really want to do is.

Not overthink anymore.

Because I've seen things before it even happened.

I'm not really happy/ or sad.

I just feel numb.

I feel like I'm floating up to the sky.

Someone has to pull me down so I can sit still.

I don't wanna let you go.

Because you were good to me.

I really wanna cry.

Like badly.

I'm in between that and I feel so hurt I don't wanna feel it anymore.

Like I want to yell.

But once I open my mouth nothing comes out.

No words.

No funny laughs.

I'm lost.

I have no clue how to stop feeling like this.

Everytime i find myself overthinking it.

And I want it to stop.

I just want everything to stop.

Stop moving.

'7Stop thinking.

I just really need it to stop.

I sometimes wonder how long I can stay quiet.

I don't think anyone would care if i stopped talking.

When someone gets hurt badly they try everything to make it go away right

But what happens it eats you up and makes you feel like you're drowning.

I'm just tired.

I'm tired of everything.