The Story I Never Told Anyone

Chapter 41 lost

I feel tired.

Drained to be the best.

I never thought being a kid was stressful.

You have to have perfect grades.

Work your butt off if you don't get something.

Even if you're tired.

It's like you're playing pac man and each time pac man eats your grades you win it.

For the longest time I've been playing this game.

And each time I have to do it faster.

Most people think I'm gifted.

I'm not gifted.

I'm just a person who puts in a lot of effort to be the best.

I know what your going to say "no one is perfect and your not perfect"

Between you and me,

I'll act like I don't know what you're talking about.

I have to be perfect.

All the time and 200% always.

Everyone has a phobia.

Everyone has something that scares them the most even if they don't show it.

Mine just happens to be atelophobia.

If you don't know what atelophobia is.

Basically is an obsessive fear of imperfection.

I feel like I have to be perfect all the time.

No step backs.

No breaks.

No nothing.

Just keep going like a 100% train that's speeding it's way down a hill and then up it again.

I even have a mockingbird always saying do better over and over again.

It reminds me of it over and over again.