Gone Forever • Min Yoongi ✔️

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22 November

The day I first met you. You didn’t even know me; yet, you climbed the stage and asked me how I was. It was something unusual for me. And when I returned home, I couldn’t get you off my mind.

 

22 December

I met you again. I was asked to play at the opening of a café. You were there too. While, I was a little shocked to see you there, a part of me was happy. I asked the answer from myself, but I never found it within myself. I just liked seeing you. It was odd and new for me. And I couldn’t get my mind off you yet again.

 

30 December

 I met you at the café today. I heard your music. I heard how you played. But most of all, I heard you. There was something about your music that made me want to approach you and talk to you and get to know you. I had this sudden urge to play a duet with you. When you saw me, you approached me. And then we talked. You told me you felt something when you heard my music. And I told you I had felt it too. Your voice was deep and calming and I wanted to listen to it all day long. Your gummy smile made my heart flutter. I found out your name; Min Yoongi. Something about your name made me want to stay and talk to you. But I had to leave. Until next week.

 

7 January

I met you again today. We talked and I felt oddly at peace listening to you. By the end of the day I had found out that music was your life as much as it was mine. We had so much in common; we enjoyed quietness, preferred silence over talking, music over the world, and so much more. We even had the same coffee flavor we liked.

 

13 January

You wanted to play a duet today. And so we did and it was the best thing I’ve done in my whole life and that’s saying something. I fell in love with the way our music intertwined. Your friend, Hoseok, hugged us. He told me how I’d become the reason of your smile. It was a warm feeling and I didn’t know what to make of it. You didn’t let me say goodbye to him. I threw a tantrum about it just to get a hug out of you. I don’t understand why I did that, but since the day we had started hanging out, hugging you had become like a mini goal for me. And today, I finally achieved it. You smelled like chocolate and strawberry when I hugged you. But the thing I felt most was that I felt some sense of security when you hugged me. I couldn’t understand it, but I loved it.

 

22 January 

Min Min. You had started calling me that. And I loved it. I had always hated my real name, but when you spoke it, I fell in love with it. And you gave me a new nick name. Every time you spoke my name or nick name, my heart would beat faster. Today was our three month friendship anniversary. I had never done something like this with anyone, but with you, I kept track of everything. I noticed the small details and the bigger ones. I noticed it all, which was highly unlikely of me, but there was something about you that made me do things I had never even thought of doing before. We went to the park and I took you to my favorite spot. I hadn’t planned for things to go this way, but before I knew it, I was pouring out my heart to you. You made me want to tell you everything and be invulnerable in front of you. And when I cried, you were there. You warmed you, you filled me, you caressed me, you comforted me. I felt at peace.

 

23 January

I left Hoseok a note today telling him to give it to you. We hadn’t exchanged phone numbers and I had to go away urgent, so Instead I left a written message.