Burden (Obito x Deidara) (TobiDei)

Truth

My hands started to shake as I felt my entire world spin. As if the sensation of alcohol had been drained into me all at once, replacing every cell with a drop of the very substance. My head spun, my body was unable to react.

"No..."

I whispered quietly as I fell onto my knees, curling up into a ball. "R-rin...why are you...telling me this?" I asked as I looked up at the figure in front of me, Rin now looking as blurry as ever as tears filled my eyes.

"Obito, I...I think it was not the forbidden jutsu who had killed the Uchihas that particular day"

Rin repeated what she had said just mere seconds before. She crawled over to me to wrap her arms around me in comfort, but without thinking, I harshly pushed her hands away from me. "I...I need some space.." I whispered, my voice barely making it out louder than a squeak.

The Hidden leaf village has always been my home to me, a place where I had placed my duty and in return, I had promised to sacrifice my life if necessary for the sake of peace and harmony in this very village. However, my thoughts have slowly been altered since the day Deidara had told me about what happened. My doubt, pain and confusion have caused my thoughts and beliefs to be split into two, who do I trust?

My comrades? or someone who was there?

"Obito...I was the nurse who gave them treatments, they did not die due to the explosives..." Rin said quietly as she noticed me distracted by my own thoughts.

"I found poison within their bloodstream...I think the village tried to assassinate members of the Uchiha clan"

Poison? That is the usual technique of assassination. I would know since I have dealt with these kinds of cases before. Could it be? No, there is no way that is true. "There must be some kind of misunderstanding I mean...what if it is from another village-" after my brief response to reason with the accusation, Rin gave me a look of pity, enough to make me feel insane to attempt to protect the leaf village. But, Rin would certainly not lie.

"Obito..." her voice was soft but unable to distract me from my slight anxiety attack, which was almost at its peak from hearing the news. "Obito!" she yelled louder as she grabs my face, her fingers holding onto the sides of my face as her fingers shook with fear. "Stay away from anyone who is in the Anbu...I...I'm here because they.." She paused, her face frozen with fear. She had probably realised she is panicking more than I.

"Nothing." She quickly said as she pulled me towards her, gesturing she would allow me to hug her. "Please calm down, I am only here to tell you the truth of what I know..." She said as I moved my body closer, but the warmth of Rin's body no longer made me feel safe. I felt as alone as ever, though Rin was beside me. Shivers ran up my spine as I thought about what Rin has told me, over and over again.

"What have we Uchihas ever done? All that we did was in the past...why is it that we are the strong ones but we are also cursed" I asked Rin quietly, but I didn't expect her to know as she stayed there silently cradling my anxiety.

"I'm sorry, Obito" She whispered as the silence of the night surrounded us. "I don't know" she admitted, looking defeated. I looked at her lost expression, deciding not to question her any further. Rin should rest after what has happened.
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Rin left that night with a particular look on her face; Fear.

Her blood looked as if it was drained from her face, but she still mustered up a smile as she reminded me to take care of myself, with the slight wave of her hand as she started to walk back home.

I shut the door and turned around, I froze as I looked at the ceiling, my head empty with no thoughts. I can't begin to digest what I'm feeling as if there is a void within myself that couldn't be filled, an emotion which I can not pinpoint. I walked towards my bedroom, closing the curtains as my room grew darker. I can't think, I am in no state to think. I let myself sink into the bed, my body felt relieved to be put to rest but it still feels tensed after discovering the truth.

With the silence of the night now surrounding me, a similar voice and a set of words come back to haunt me once again...

"Me? Hurt people? I didn't even do shit except escape!"

Deidara's words rang through my head, as the exact same tone echoed. He sounded helplessly honest. His blue eyes widened as his fingers gripped his chest. He looked almost repelled by my statement, completely denying the accusation. Yes, that was what he looked like, he looked like someone innocent.

But wait, Is it right to trust a criminal?

I groaned as my own thoughts started to overwhelm me, my grip tightened on the pillow as I tried to shut my thoughts off. What will I do when the sun rises again tomorrow? What can I do as an Uchiha to save my own clan?

What can I do in order to save everyone?