hysteria ( eddie munson x steve harrington)

14. have you ever needed someone so bad

when steve woke up eddie was gone. or at least he assumed so, but he felt so anxious that it almost made him sick. he struggled with thinking back to his days of only getting hook ups, one night stands with no meaning. so he figured eventually he needed to tell eddie to please be there in the morning when he woke up. it made him feel important, it was small but to him it just would show someone cared about him.

attempting to get himself to stop overthinking he got up and took a shower, clearing his mind from the hundreds of thoughts he was having at once. he still thought his boyfriend wasn't there so when the door opened he accidentally screamed, okay maybe he was overreacting but what if it was someone trying to rob him? or even worse someone trying to kill him?

"woah calm down steve, just me"

he instantly relaxed when he heard eddie's voice, he didn't sound mad just slightly annoyed? that was still enough to make steve panic. without really realizing it steve started to cry and it wasn't quiet either he was full blown sobbing in the shower all because he was anxious that maybe his boyfriend only wanted him for the same thing all the girls wanted.

"stevie?" he had been joking earlier when he walked in sounding almost sarcastic but now eddie's voice just sounded sweet, it reminded steve of honey and it just made him cry even more.

before he could process what was happening eddie pulled back the shower curtain, and he was still wearing clothes, steve has great taste in men.

he couldn't help but laugh softly when he looked at that, eddie standing in front of him in the shower still wearing his old black sabbath tee and steves sweatpants. eddie definitely looked a little bit like an idiot right now, but he's steve's idiot that's all that matters to him.

"you...are the dumbest boy i've ever met" steve smiled a little sadly but mostly he felt better now. besides the obvious fact that he wasn't wearing anything, all of his nervousness melted away when eddie wiped his tears away.

"you're stuck with me for life" eddie shrugged as though he hadn't just admitted he wants spend his entire life with him. but from the way he was blushing steve could tell he meant it.

"now, let's get you dried off and then we can go lay down and talk about whatever's bothering that pretty little head of yours"

when they got to steve's room he stayed silent as he let himself be held with his head on eddie's chest. he didn't know if he was ready to have this conversation yet he wasn't one to talk about his trauma so openly.

eddie's hand felt so warm on steve's back, but his rings were cold and steve was way too hyper focused over the little details. eddie smelled like lavender now since he had to use steve's shampoo but it was almost comforting for them to use the same one. eventually he lifted his head up and was met with eddie already looking at him.

"are you completely serious about us?"

he fidgeted with eddie's rings as he spoke, his voice was shaky and he didn't want to see how the other boy reacted just in case it was bad.

"of course baby, why would i be here if i wasn't?"

steve sighed, better now than never?

"it's just that when you aren't here when i wake up it almost makes me feel used. it's not even your fault, it's just because of all the stupid one night stands i used to have"

eddie's heart almost broke to hear that, he had absolutely no idea that he was making steve feel that way. he cupped his face gently, kissing him just lightly enough to show he understood what steve was feeling and that he wasn't mad.

"is that all? you could've told me that you look like a lost puppy right now and i feel so bad, steve you have to tell me these things"

he just nodded and made a small sad noise, the last thing he wanted was for eddie to to be mad at him. he knew he wasn't it was just a constant fear, yet again not his boyfriends fault either.

"it just sounded stupid to me, when i was thinking about it this morning"

"i really love you genuinely and believe me when i say i've never said that to anyone else"

he sighed contently feeling safe now, kissing along eddie's collarbone and his neck just because he didn't feel like looking up again.

"i'll stay next time steve you don't have to worry, but don't you have work today?"

he was grabbing a handful of eddie's shirt, starting to cry into his arms. not as much because he was sad this time he was just overwhelmed by how much he felt for him.

"shh doll it's okay i've got you, my pretty boy even though you're soaking my shirt"

eddie somehow always knew how to make steve laugh even when he could barely even smile. the way he had his arms wrapped around him made steve never want to let go, he was so warm and comforting.

"are we ever going to tell people about, you know, us?" his voice came out almost a whisper, steve's reputation would inevitably be ruined if word got out so he was afraid to ask.

"well most of the kids know, if you want to eddie we can its not like anyone else's opinion is going to change how i feel about you"

"we should get up stevie, go get breakfast? since that's what i was doing when you got up"

steve went quiet, blushing so much he almost looked like a strawberry. "oh" he smiled, feeling less and less bad as the morning went on. eddie wasn't using him, he was trying to be the best boyfriend he could be while having absolutely no relationship experience.

"let's get up doll, oh and can i pick what you wear?"

/i'm projecting