I pray to "Jesus or anyone that's there" every night, usually. But every time I do so, I have the belief that the atheists are right.
Oh god oh fuck I'm panicing i can feel myself panicing calm calm calm down...
But I don't want atheists to be right, but I also can't prove it... I'm stuck thinking that I should tempt death to find out what's on the other side, even thought it's not.
This has also been affecting my sleep, as it feels like that's what death would feel like, just temporarily. I'm scared to not wake up so
Fuck shut up shut up brain in crying so what no stop calm calm calm you're alright it's fine Breathe.
I'm scared to not wake up one day, and that makes me unable to go to sleep.
Help me, anyone, anything. Please. It hurts.
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Abstraction
Non-Fiction[Started on: June 14, 2022] This is an abstraction of real thoughts. My thoughts. Every time I feel harsh worry, dread, or fear, I will write; I will write right here. Those who want to read about another's poetry, go ahead, but I can't promise...
