Bughead || recovering

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the next morning i woke up to jughead hurrying to get out "what's wrong" " i fell asleep here last night" i realized it was morning time and hurried to my brothers room , he was still sleeping , i tried shaking him awake and he wouldn't budge , he was like a statue , and you can only imagine the worst in this case" and i was standing over him shaking and panicking for what felt like a couple minutes he walked in thinking hed walked into a crime scene and stood there for a second before Charles woke up in a panic "are you okay" he nodded" "could i do back to sleep" "just take this" i said while handing him the pills that would help me sober up that i left on the bedside table the night before" "ill check on you in a bit" i walked out and took him with me , we were outside , "who's going To take care of him when you leave" "i wouldn't know" "'what do you mean" "I'm not leaving" "why not" "you just saw why" "haven't heard from your parents" "you ask that every time and know the answer" "theyll turn up eventually" "we can hope" "do you like the independence you have" "ive been independent living majority of life" "that might be better than having the freakiest controlling parents " "i wish i had someone around to tell me what to do" "speaking of weird parents, my moms blowing up my phone, im about to be late to school , ive got to go" "bye" "i have a big football game later would you want to uh come" "oh i don't know" "please" "uhh .. sure , yeah ill go" "then ill see you later" "guess you will" it was later and id left my brother home with some soup and a movie playing , i don't remember the last time id been to a game , i always thought they were boring and unnecessary , i was sitting by myself when someone sat next to me , it was veronica , "your the last person id expect to see here" "jughead asked me to come" "are you two" "not really" "whats been up with you , i havent seen you at school in a while" "im just sorting some things" "you don't answer your texts anymore" "i don't use my phone much" "are you okay" "yeah im fine" "no like seriously" "im fine" she looked around for a second making sure no one could hear "i know that you think you protected him or something but i know what nick did to you" "hes gone now , its not like it matters" "he destroyed your life , that matters" "I'm okay now really" "with your circumstances id be more concerned if you were okay" "you're probably right , but I'm trying" "i know your parents haven't been around in a while because of your sister , and god knows im over stepping but i need you to know that im still someone you can talk to , you can only push someone so far away" "yeah i know" "do you want to sit with the other girls" "not really" "good , they were annoying me" "i would bet" "Cheryl's throwing a party after the game , if you'd want to come "yeah , sure" "great" the game was over and theyd won , i was waiting for him near his car "you came" "i did" "do you want a ride home " "im actually going to go with veronica" "i didn't know you two talked" "were just catching up" "alright" "you played really well by the way" "thanks" , then his friends came , "I'll text you later" "what are you embarrassed of me" "want to go to a movie tomorrow" "I'll have to check the schedule it's booked" "so it's a date" "gross don't say that" i went to the party with veronica and we hung around for a while , i drank , like a lot , i dont know why i just didnt stop getting refills of the spiked fruit punch but eventually i was on the blink of passing out , once veronica had realized she made me sit down and told me to stay while she got water , the second she was out of sight i had gotten up and wandered around cheryls huge house , i bumped into some guy , and he stopped me , "are you okay" "yeah im fine" i said slurring my words , "do you want to see something cool" talking to me as if i was a kid , but it was like i was so i agreed and followed this random dude to a random part of Cheryl's house , "whered the cool thing" then he started taking off his belt "oh god" i walked away , he grabbed my arm "oh come on" he pinned me against the wall and attempted to talk dirty , that and the amount of alcohol in my body made me gag in his face , witch offended him i guess because he hit my head into the wall and then dragged me into the closest room by the back of my head and pushed me onto the bed , he folded his belt and did that thing were it makes a noise trying to be scary witch made me start laughing , witch he also took offense to , he tried pulling my pants while i rolled around unaware of the situation i was in , and got his phone out and started recording me for some reason , "where is that cool thing you wanted to show me" he had how fully whipped it out "theres nothing cool about that" he then puts the camera down and just get violent , witch i think gave me a wake up call on what he was trying to do he pins my head into a pillow with the amount of  force that i couldnt breathe , or move , and sits on my back while i suffocated , and he picks back up the camera while saying some weird shit , and with everything in me i rolled over and tried running to the door before he grabbed my feet and i fell over i kicked at his face and didn't stop, i think i hit him in the nose because he gave up and i went downstairs and kept bumping into people  , i went outside and started panting around , i was so freaked out that i just walked home , witch was miles away , a car pulled up beside me a couple minutes in "hey" i didnt turn , and they got out then they said my name and i turned , it was jughead , "hey" i said before touching my face and feeling something under my nose , then looking at my fingers and realizing it was blood,"god , are you hurt" "I had to much to drink and fell over" "was it him" "no it wasn't" "you don't have to lie to me" "I'm not lying" "then why are you so shaken up" "it's pretty cold outside" "I'm not stupid" "what do you want ? You want me to tell you someone beat me up so you can go and beat them up to show that you care" "I want to know if you're okay" "I said I am"  "why are you walking home its like 30 degrees and almost midnight" "i wanted to go home" "i thought you were hanging out with veronica" "i was" "are you drunk" "i dont know" "do you want a ride" "i think ill walk" "your miles away from home with no sweater" "why are you driving here any way" "you bumped into me at Cheryl's and then speed walked out" "oh" "are you okay" "i dont know" "ill take you home" "i don't want to get in your car right now" "what happened" "I'm going to go" "you can trust me , you know you can trust me" "i know" "do you want me to call you a taxi" "i dont know" "did you take something" "no" "i cant leave you out here its midnight" "walk with me then" "okay" he took his key out the car then opened the back door and pulled out a sweater witch he handed to me  , and we started walking , "there's still blood on your face" "well obviously" "why is your nose bleeding" "I told you already" "whys it actually bleeding" "don't push me right now" "okay I'll drop it" when we got to my house he said "whos car is that" , "i dont know" "do you want me to check with you" "sure" i opened the door to see my parents and lots of suitcases i shut the door "thanks for walking me"" "was that " "yeah it was" "goodnight then" "goodnight" i walked back in and the moment they saw me they tried forming a sentence "are you hurt" "fuck you guys" i said while walking to my room my mom got my room key and unlocked it "you have to hear us out" "get the fuck out of my room" "im gonna make this right" "the only way you could make this right was if you time traveled a year back and actually parented youre fucking daughter so that she didnt kill herself" "you think you could parent any better" "id never have kids so i can fucking abandon them when they need you" "have you eaten anything today elizabeth" "youre two dimes you left for me ran out months ago and ive been pulling out from my college fund to get charles a fucking meal on the occasion that he is here so what the fuck do you think" "im sorry okay , i didnt know what to do i didnt expect to be gone for so long but it happened" "you arent sorry" "are you using again" "oh my god" "are you using again" "no im not fucking using again okay" "ill get you help , ill get you better" "oh shut up" "why is your nose bleeding" "I fell" "don't lie to me" "I'm not" "are you hanging around that one guy again" "no I'm not" "why do you hang around people that hurt you" "cause I don't have a mother figure" "I'm not proud of this, I know you needed me, but I'll make this right" then she walked out , ripping the posters off my wall and breaking a mirror or something but I just fell asleep.