"I know, I know. Mommy will be ready for you in a minute," I softly said as I walked past Harry who was holding both the boys. Gavin was already crying, squirming to get out of Harry's grip cause he was not happy. Benjamin on the other hand was just rubbing his little fists against his eyes as he scrunched up his nose, letting out little whines every now and then.
Getting comfortable against the headboard, I pulled down my nursing top and put my breast pads on my nightstand before gathering some pillows around my hips for my own comfort before grabbing the big nursing pillow and plonking it down on my lap. "Okay, I'm ready," I looked up at Harry with a little smile.
"You hear that, G-man? Mommy is ready!" Harry grinned as he stepped closer to the bed.
"Mama!" Gavin cried out and practically dived into my arms.
Shushing him as I lied him down, I grasped my boob and held his head up so he could latch firmly. Once he was on, I stroked my hand over his head and looked up at Harry.
"Benji's turn," Harry cooed as he cuddled him tightly and pressing little kisses to his cheek.
Smiling sweetly at them, I watched as Harry gently put him down by my side and helped me keep them both close while I helped Benjamin latch on.
Sighing as he finally did, I closed my eyes and leaned my head back as I held an arm around their back and supported their heads. Breastfeeding these days was such a pain. Not only did Benjamin have three teeth coming in already, and Gavin one tooth but my poor nipples were so cracked and ruined from seemingly constantly breastfeeding two babies.
"Babe," Harry sighed as he reached out and grasped my hand, giving it a little squeeze. "I can make them some bottles, you have some milk pouches in the fridge. You could pump to..,"
"No," I Interrupted him, shaking my head. "No, I want to try a bit more. It's not that bad," I tried to reassure him. Of course, Benji chose this moment to slip on his latch and bite down as he fussed. Taking in a sharp quick breath, I whimpered and quickly helped him latch back on.
"It's your call, love," Harry whispered as he leaned over the babies and gave me a little kiss.
"I know I won't be able to do it for much longer but I'm not ready to stop just yet," I whispered back as I looked down at my sweet baby boys.
After about 20 minutes Benjamin was out like a light while Gavin would still occasionally do a little suckle in his half-asleep state.
"I'll get him in his sleepsack and into his crib then come back for Gavin," Harry said quietly as he eased his hands under Benji's bum and head, cradling him close to his chest.
"Thanks, I think Gavin will be done by then. I'll come in with him," I replied.
"No, you stay. I'll come back for him," Harry smiled before walking out of the room.
I couldn't be bothered to cover up my other breast just yet as it was nice for it to not be rubbing against any clothing or a biting mouth on it. Once Gavin was fast asleep too, I eased my breast out of his mouth and let out a little sigh of relief.
I was going to get up and help Harry put them down but it felt too nice to just sit there and do nothing. And quite possible after snoozing a little, I jumped as Gavin was taken from me.
"Shh, it's okay. Just me. Going to put him down and I'll be back," he said as he held Gavin, rocking him slightly as he fussed at being moved.
"Kay," I whispered back as I rubbed my eyes before putting the nursing pillow on the ground and reaching for the monitor to the camera we had installed in the nursery. Smiling as I turned the sound and image on. Harry was softly singing to Gavin as he lowered him down onto his mattress.
Waiting as I watched him leave the room, I put the monitor on the nightstand and made sure it stood still before reaching for my nipple cream.
"You want some food? A drink?" Harry asked as he came into our bedroom and sat down on the bed, plucking the nipple cream I was opening from my hand.
"No thank you," I replied, biting down on my lip as Harry put a little dollop of the cream on his finger, letting it warm up by rubbing it between two fingers.
"You're so beautiful," Harry whispered as he shuffled closer and gave me a kiss.
I scoffed as I looked at him. "I have spit-up stains all over my top and I haven't brushed my hair in days,"
"And still you're the most beautiful person I've ever seen," Harry smiled softly before he started to gently rub in the nipple cream onto my nipples. "Sorry," he whispered as I whimpered quietly.
Closing my eyes, I mumbled my thanks when Harry finished.
"Think you need a nap too," Harry chuckled quietly as he pressed a few kisses up my chest and to my cheek as he gently put my top back in place.
"Will you hold me?" I asked him as I shuffled down so I could lie down. He nodded and went to switch off the lights.
"Always,"
