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𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘱 30: 𝘔𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘵

Chan never thought about dating someone seriously.

It wasn't anything new; it was a well-known fact. No matter how many times Changbin and Han would try to talk the older into going on a date or going out with someone, they barely succeeded. Chan hasn't shown that much interest in dating or people in a romantic way, not even sexually. He seemed to be pretty set on what he wanted to achieve in the next few years: a big family, made out of his friends, that would brighten his day and that would make his silent house feel less empty.

And yet, when he woke up to a warm weight on him, things somehow felt... comfortable?

Unlike other one night stands he had a while ago, Chan had stayed there overnight. He had the habit of leaving soon after he had finished his part: what he had done wasn't anything more than task he had to perform for his body. In addition to that, he'd always choose to go to a hotel, never in his house; it was a simple safety measurement.

Often, though, what he'd do is take care of himself, not bothering to go to other people. A flexible program was something Chan lacked and going to meet with people you were going to leave in an hour was a waste of time in Chan's view. Not to mention, he never knew when his phone would ring to call him back to the office or to any place that was probably far away from society.

Going back at the warm weight on his body, Chan was confused about what had happened and who he was with. It was too early for his head to function properly, especially with the headache that was making itself more and more present. So, he blinked a few times, before realizing that there was a body on his. Peeking, he saw blonde fluffy hair falling on his chest. His hands moved slightly, making him realize how he had wrapped his arms around him. He tried to move them around without touching the body, but it was futile: he felt the delicate skin and started thinking about who could have been. He could see the naked body lying there, moving peacefully slightly with every breath taken.

Then, it hit him: since he had been at the party, that means that he left with someone from there.

There's only one person with that blonde.

Felix.

Chan took a deep breath and tried to calm himself down, shutting his eyes tightly.

Fuuuuuck-

As he stood there trying to accept the fact that Felix was sleeping on top of him, naked, fragments of memories came to Chan: gentle touches on his face and shoulders, heated kisses, freckles on delicate pale skin. He could still feel the younger's soft touches on his face, accelerating his heartbeat. He panicked, not knowing what he should do about Felix.

Mayyybe I should try taking him off me, first, he said sarcastically in his head, underlining just how stupid he was. His plan failed as Felix snuggled closer to him every time Chan tried his hardest to move him without waking him up. Felix's breath was felt on his chest, more on his arms.

How long has it been since I stayed like this with someone? He asked himself. Deciding that the answer would be sad, Chan tried to not answer it and focused his mind on something else: the memories that were buried deep within. What he didn't realize consciously was that he was using it as an excuse to stay with Felix more.

The way the warmth was spreading through his body and the small soft breaths only made Chan just how much he had missed human touch.

The comfort Felix made the older feel was something quite new: it was a feeling that had been long forgotten.

Just as he tried to dig deeper into his memories, his head started hurting more. Deciding to stop thinking and enjoy the feeling, Chan threw away all the logic and wrapped his arms around Felix's waist tighter, peeking at his sleeping face. Cute cheeks, warm light on the freckles, rosy lips and fluffy hair falling in an elegant way... these were a few words one could use to describe Felix's appearance, yet for Chan, it seemed to be insufficient. There was something about Felix that he couldn't really describe or put into words.