Mitch's Sister 2(PTX)

Hospital

Mitch POV

*one hour later*
I'm sitting in the hospital next to Delaney and Josh. I have no idea where Steven went but I doubt he moved from Josh's apartment.

As soon as that gunshot went off my entire world crashed. Why would she... I just don't understand. Watching your sister fall to the ground over self-inflicted pain, it's heart-wrenching. Was it a suicide attempt? Did she mean to shoot it? If I just watched her die I'm not sure I could handle it, or myself. I feel lightheaded but also like the world is pushing down on my shoulders. I'm leaned over Delaney sobbing my eyes out.

She could make it. Right? She might not die. She still has so much potential, she better not leave me now. Just earlier I was a depressed mess and now I'm right back where I started. I want to run away but I can't leave Miranda here. I need to support her, and she needs to live.

Just then a short, female nurse entered the waiting room. "Miranda Grassi." I looked up but I was way too scared to hear the verdict. I've got to stop being so negative...

Josh nodded his head at me and got up. Maybe he isn't a scary criminal after all. I watched his face change while the nurse spoke directly to him. He looked to the ground and rubbed his eyes. No.......

He came back completely avoiding my glance. "Im....So....Sorry." He collapsed to the ground. She's gone.

That's when I completely lost all composure. I feel to the ground right next to him and cried, and cried, and cried. I'm surprised I had any tears left.

And just like that she was gone. My twin sister, my other half. Gone forever. The more I thought about it the worse I felt. Del pulled Josh and I into her arms. Will I ever recover from this? This might be the one thing that pushes me over the edge.

Just then, Kevin, Avi, and crippled Kirstie walked through the main doors. They took one look and knew what happened. "Shes...." Kevin started.
"Gone." I whispered and started sobbing hard.

"Mitch come here." Kirstie said and I clung to her for dear life. 'You need to tell them about your depression. Before they lose you too.' I thought. But would it be so bad? They'd move on, just like they'll move on from this. I need to see her. Miranda can't just leave me like this. We may not have been the closest but I need any kind of closure, please.

"I need... I need to see her." I mumbled. Josh joined me and we walked towards the hall. I asked the first nurse I saw with tears still covering my face.
"I need to see my sister. She's-... I just... please..." The kind lady nodded and led us there.

Miranda laid in an incredibly bland room with a blanket over here body. "Go for it." Josh whispered. I lifted a corner of the blanket and saw remnants of a once beautiful person. Where she didn't have blood stained she was extremely pale. She barely looked like herself. I grabbed her hand but it was cold and unresponsive. But what was I expecting? I turned back to Josh who was crying at her feet. They would've been a perfect couple...

I have the overwhelming urge to cut but what would Miranda think? She'd warn me to stop before I do something stupid. But now she's not here to stop me. I'm bound to slip up sometime. I patted Josh's shoulder, "We'll get through this, I swear." I said as my tears became to dry.

"You don't understand. I finally found the perfect match and she left me in the worst possible way. She fucking bailed me out of jail. Now I can't even repay her...." Josh hugged me. I guess I'm not the only one who suffered a loss.

I'm going to stay strong. For Miranda, for me, and for Josh (even though we just met). I need too, no more losses. No more losses.

"What are we going to do about Scott? He's going to flip." I asked.
"You know, maybe she thought by taking her own life she'd get away from it all. Now she doesn't have to deal with Scott or Steven or her mom. I just wish she had another solution. We had a great future ahead of us. Suicide isn't the answer. It never is. Why Miranda? I just wish you'd come back." Josh clasped her hand and my heart broke for the third time that day. Is this what my life has become? One tragedy after another? I sound so selfish but did Miranda even consider how her actions would affect us? She finally had a loving boyfriend and a good relationship with her friends. She even gained a large sum of money that she could build a future off of. Yet, she chose to end her live in that old apartment.

Scott POV

I was scrolling through twitter when I came across one of Mitch's tweets.
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@mitchgrassi- I'll never forget you. Love you always. Rest in peace Mir.
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No... this is just a joke right? She can't be dead? My boss said she'd leave her alone... right? I called Mitch but he didn't pick up; actually none of the band would answer their phones.

I paced my room. What if she is actually dead? Did Steven actually shoot her? If he did I will kill him I swear. I need to find Miranda. I drove to the nearest hospital but there was no luck. I drove to the next one which was a county over. As soon as I saw Kirstie laying between Avi and Kevin I knew she was there.

"Is she really gone?" Kevin glared at me, but nodded.
"No...you're joking..." Tears fell from Kirstie's eyes and I rushed down the hospital wing.

"Sir, you need to calm down!" A nurse yelled behind me but I reached Miranda's room. I saw Mitch and another brunette leaning over her body crying.

"Scott..." Mitch started causing the other man to stand up straight.
"You...you're the one that attacked her." He said as he pushed me up against the wall. He punched me repeatedly in the stomach and I winced as I fell to the ground. I was no match for his strength. "Please..." I said roughly between breaths.
"No. You deserve to die. For what you did to her. Should I do that to you, huh? It's your fault she's dead, asshole." The brunette kept punching me until I saw stars and my vision blurred. I passed out right there on the floor.

*three hours later*
I woke up in a different room with an IV in my arm. I could move fine, but it killed to do anything. Mitch sat in the corner.
"Hi Scott."
"Hi."
"Please don't go after Josh, he just let his emotions get to him."
"Who is Josh?"
"Miranda's... um... ex boyfriend now I guess."
"Was it Steven? I swear I will kill him if-"
"No. It was her."
"What?"
"She shot herself, I don't think she could take it anymore." Mitch rubbed his eyes. I looked down, it was my fault she killed herself. At least partially. I allowed a few tears to fall from my eyes but I don't deserve to cry, not after what I did.

I'm a monster.

A/N: THIS IS NOT THE END OF THE STORY.