His broken princess

sunshine on my rain

I remember my first crush, the one guy that made me felt hope, felt so happy talking to him, I Felt so happy.

the first time I saw him he was playing the bass guitar in a activity for young people. I was in high school in 7th grade he was in 10th grade.

We stated talking getting to know each other, he was the first guy that I trust the guy that made me feel like an actual high school girl.

We didn't live in the same place so we communicated though message, I never wonder if he got annoyed by me, because it seemed that everything was going so great.

I remember coming out and being clear about my feelings towards him, I can't remember what he said but he found it amusing, my family knew how I felt about him because it was obvious.

We talk all those times getting to know each other, and the more we talk the more I felt welcome by him more shy talking to him.

I remember him saying the group was coming back to my place to do another activity for young people, about three years later.

feeling so nervous my heart race would speed up just thinking about him coming, we would be in one place together all those crazy thoughts.

The first time seeing him again after 3 years I didn't know how to react or what to expect from him.

My eyes capture his, he was staring at me, throughout that entire day, he didn't come close to me or talk to me, it was like he didn't even know me, and I didn't have the guts to go and say hi to him cause I felt embarrassed.

I felt so stupid cause I didn't sleep the night thinking about how he would greet me. I remember beating myself up about how stupid I am and  I should have slept that night and not stay up thinking so much, and of course he wouldn't talk to me.... cause is me.

Seeing him talk to people it hurt even more, why couldn't he talk to me did I not reach up to his expectations, I picked out my best clothes, my only tennis I was excited for nothing.

The night he was about to leave, I told my cousin about my crush I had on him, and she called him over.

He came and hug me saying hi, and I said "wow your so tall" he smirk hearing me saying that.

As he was about to say something else his pastor called him over, I didn't know what to do so the first thing that came to my mind, "can I have one more hug" I said he didn't hesitate. It was so embarrassing

But I still felt a  sad knowing that he didn't feel the same way and I really did like him..

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He guys  if your wondering I still talk to him it's just different now,

We are not awkward talking together and we build a communication where everything is comfortable...

What do you guys think?

Have you been in a situation like this?

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Love Anai