His broken princess

cry for you lecrae

This thorn in my flesh, is the only thing I got left and it's so hard to confess when everybody thinks your perfect.

But I cry for you if you feel it too. And I'll cry for you if you're so hard to lose the elephant in the room

Take it away, I beg you, take it all away the pain it causes, it makes me wish I could fade, away if they knew what you knew lord, they'd probably shush me I'm surprised you know it all and you love me.

I know I break your heart, body of death, give me rest if my heart stops then it won't hurt no more, can't get worse no more, can't pursue all these desires, it ain't cursed no more, no more lies about my worth no more.

I understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside but when I stop and think about my family, I feel new inside I promise I would die a thousand deaths before I cause them any pain but somehow I end up killing everything.

I cry for you, if you feel a dark, twisted, heart-wrenching, hate to see your own reflection, praying for a an intervention, feeling guilt feeling shame I just call on Jesus name praying daily, can you take away this pain?

Take the thorn away,
Still it remains, I feel the same, I know that am here, but I still feel insane.

Satan would love to see me give up and throw up my hands he say am guilty but you say am clean.

Sunday morning I woke up dead by all the hurt I saw before me, evil trying to take away my testimony staring at my phone feeling like a phony.

Oh I cry for you, I would die for you, to escape the pain I feel from all I've been through, I feel it in my soul in my flesh take away this ugly thron inside my flesh.

Give me death.

But grace is sufficient to start my mission, am so far from perfect can't believe they listen, but hear a broken man tell you healing happens or a liar tell the truth to bring your gladness.

I could never boast my accomplishment, I can only hope in God with confidence opposite of optimist, you and I are consonants broken all the vowels, deserving of every consequence.

Would you cry for me or will you judge me? would you throw a stone at my head or would you love me?

I can never be everything that you want to see but but Crooked Stick draw straight lines just look at me.

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If I had to write all my emotions in one page and how I feel this would be it.

Please don't hesitate if you have any questions.

Love Anai