Growing up I was always told I was The 'Lucky One', the one who doesn't get all the whooping from mommy, the silent little shy one, and I've always thought, the lucky one really.
Does being lucky means you don't have any friends or does it means your really insurance about yourself, because if that's what lucky means then I don't want to be lucky.
After the accident me and my sister had, she became so distant to me, she didn't want to take me anywhere whit her, and she never wanted me around.
And being the happy little kid I was, I've always wanted to be around her, but she would always be whit her friends, I try annoying her to get her attention, she would prefer to be whit my younger sister than me , after a while I stop trying to gain her attention.
I thought my sister didn't wanted me around, because she didn't wanted me to embarrass her in front of all her friends.
I remember her asking me once, how does it feels to have that burn, "I can't imagine having that" she said, and my little sister agreed nodding her head and reaping what my sister said, I didn't know what to say so, I just started crying in front of them, as simple as the question was I couldn't answer because I was so hurt.
It was at a camp that I opened up and told my sister how I felt and how much her actions and words did hurt me, at the camp it was a night of opening up and forgiving, one of the leaders of the camp called me aside and started to ask me questions, i can't seem to remember them, but one thing lead to another... she couldn't understand me that well so she called a translator, she asked me if I was ready to forgive my sister and I said "yes am ready to forgive her but not in front of her, I'll just do it in my heart" I replied whit my heart bumping fast.
The translator told me if I really wanted this to work I needed to it in front of my sister, I agree, and he went to look for my sister, I told her how I've felt all the years while crying and I told her that I forgive her, whit tears in her eyes she said " I've never wanted you to get hurt, that's why I stayed away from you, I blame myself for the accident that we had, I don't want anything else to happen to you that's why I stay away, I don't want anything to happen to you I love you, your my little sister" she said crying.
I told her how much her distant to me hurted a lot... and we forgive each other that night, one of the nights I will never forget, I remember crying so much at night when I woke up my eyes were so puffy, I was embarrassed to go out and let everyone see me, but even with puffy eyes I was so happy and relieved knowing that my sister
me love me.
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His broken princess
Cerita PendekI understand the thoughts of suicide that do reside but when I sit and think about my family I feel new inside, I promise I would cause a thousand deaths before I cause them any pain but somehow I end up killing everything. I cry for you I would die...
