They say, "fair haunt you" and pain hates, I say pain strengthens.
I don't know all the outcomes, don't know what happens tomorrow, but when that ocean of doubt comes don't let me drown in my sorrows. And please don't leave me at the bottom I feel like this hole is too deep to climb.
Every breath is like a battle I feel like am not prepared, I can hear death knockin on my front door and pain creeping through the back, fear crawling through the window just waiting on me to attack.
They say "don't get bitter, get better" am working on that, telling God am going to need a lot of hope to keep it together, I'm smiling in everyone's face, am crying whenever they leave the room, they don't know the battle I face, they just don't understand what am going through.
Am just trying to find where to go, but I can't do this on my own that's why am trusting in you, cause I don't know where else to go, and I don't know what else to do.
Trying to pick up the pieces of my life, hoping that I get something together right, please help me, stay and fight.
I wish someday I can get my life together, to find all the pieces that I need to complete me.
I wish I could find happiness in myself and not be dependent on others to bring me happiness but it's hard.
At times I was feeling so far from God, my faith in people left me scarred, I thought they were going to help me, I cried but nobody replied to me.
I question the truth inside of me and that's when the devil came and lied to me, he said " if God really did love you why didn't he ever show up, he could have save you from all those pain but he didn't".
Lord can you restore me? I've never thought that my life had a story I've never thought that someone would care to listen.
Am not trying to got back to the old me am trying to hold on like my mama told me, but sometimes your legs and arms get weak and you fall slowly.
All the bitterness and anger I had to let it go, people talking down on me I guess that's how it goes.
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