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Tonight's the night of my dinner with Harry

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Tonight's the night of my dinner with Harry. I'm really nervous about it. I have no clue what to even talk about other than Beckett. What if he pries and asks questions I'm not ready to talk about? What if he's not easy to talk to about anything?

I was trying not to think about it too much or else I'd get a stomachache. I had issues with anxiety in the past, so I was trying to prevent something from happening. I've done pretty well at learning what to do in order to distract myself to calm my nerves down, which is why we had a beach day today.

We got Beckett lots of beach toys and I brought a book to try and keep my mind preoccupied with other things so that I didn't worry myself about dinner more than I needed to. I'm taking Emery's advice today.

If you worry yourself before it actually happens, you'll have to go through it twice, and it's not worth it.

We slept in later today until about 10 o'clock to make up for the early morning yesterday. I've slept better since that first night here. My body got used to the time change quicker than I thought, so I'm thankful for that.

We were able to get chairs at the beach with our wristbands we got at the concierge on the first day we were here and let me just say, they were so worth it. The beach chairs were in sets of two and were connected by a little table area in the middle. They even had an umbrella in the middle of the two chairs for some shade. It was super comfortable to lay on and relax. Totally worth the money in my opinion.

We hung out on the beach for the majority of the day. Beckett played with all of his toys and had asked both me and Em to play with him at times. He set up all of his toys in the sand in between both of our chairs and played there. Occasionally we would go in the wet sand to make a sand castle or sculpture or go into the shallow part of the ocean, but mostly we relaxed at our umbrella until we got too hot and wanted to cool off a bit.

I read my book a little bit as well to try and get my mind off of the night to come. It worked until it was time to head back up to the room to start getting ready.

We went back up to the room at around 4 o'clock to give me enough time to shower, get dressed, and do my hair and makeup. I also needed a little advice session with Em to boost my confidence a little bit.

Harry had texted me today to confirm our time and to double-check that I was still okay with being gone from "the little one" tonight, as he put it. I also gave him my room number, as he was adamant about picking me up "like a proper date".

He called it a date.

I had tried to not freak myself out more by calling it just a dinner since a date put more pressure on it, or at least it seemed like to me.

But he actually called it a date, which made it a whole heck of a lot scarier.

When we got back into the room Em watched Beckett while I took a shower and changed into comfy clothes so that I could do my hair and makeup. For some reason, I liked to get dressed last to pull it all together.

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