hibiscus || h.s.

fourteen

We've been in Hawaii for a week now. It's gone by pretty fast, but at the same time it feels like we're in our own little world here where time stands still.

Lennon told me about her ex-husband Luke yesterday. I'll admit I was pretty surprised. It wasn't how I planned the evening to go, but I wouldn't change a thing.

I just thought we'd sit and watch the sunset. I knew that I felt comfortable enough with Len to tell her anything and everything about me, but I didn't know she felt the same way.

It's strange. I've never felt this comfortable with someone so quickly. It just feels right. Those are the only words I can use to describe it.

We sat on the beach for a while last night after I said those words to her. No words were spoken after that. I held her as we cried together, comforting her in the only way I knew how.

Once our tears dried and we calmed ourselves down a bit, we went through the drive thru and got cheeseburgers. It was very different from our healthy acai bowls we had for lunch, but we deserved to splurge a little. Len agreed that fast food was the way to go. We sat in the parking lot of the fast food place while we ate our food, cracking jokes every once in a while. It was pretty fun, honestly.

Who would have thought I would say that sitting in a parking lot and eating a greasy cheeseburger was fun.

It was nice to be able to sit and joke around with her after the serious conversation at the beach. Refreshing, really. It's rare to find someone that you can go from being serious to joking around with that easily. There's a good balance there.

Len trusted me with one of the most vulnerable parts of her and I hope I acted in the way she needed me to in regards to that. Those words I said to her have been swirling around in my head for a little while. Since she first told me the surface level information about her ex-husband. Luke.

God, I wanted to give that guy a piece of my mind. I know it's not really worth it since it's been a few years and Len and I technically aren't together, but man that guy is a dick. And that's being nice. I just hope she believes the words I told her.

The ones about what she deserves. I meant every word. I still do. I probably always will.

Len is one of those people who comes into your life and lights up your world. If you get lucky enough to have someone like that, you should do everything in your power to keep them.

I told her I'd be there as long as she'll have me, and after yesterday I mean that even more than I did before.

Dane told me I'm whipped when I told him about our day, and I couldn't even disagree.

Lennon Carter came into my life less than a week ago and she's already consumed every thought in my brain.

And I wouldn't trade it for the world.