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Today is our last full day here. I'd be lying if I said I was ready to leave. Going home means back to every day life, back to the real world, back to life without Lennon and Beckett.
This past week with them has been one of the best weeks of my life. After Shannon, I never thought that the kids would have another mother figure in their lives, especially not this soon.
Lennon has been the biggest surprise to us all.
I've already decided that after today, I'm gonna fight for her. I'm gonna fight for us. I have no clue where her mind is at, and that's something we're going to need to talk about today once I figure out a good time to bring it up.
The scariest thing is I don't know how that conversation is going to go.
I'm hoping I'm not misreading everything with her. I don't think I have, but apparently I'm bad at reading signs.
I mean I didn't pick up on my cheating fiancée so who knows.
Lennon hasn't done anything to make me second guess what's going on between us, though.
Right?
I'm going to have to step out of my comfort zone again to communicate with her. My mum always told me that being outside of your comfort zone is where you'll grow, but I never realized what she meant until now. I've never pushed myself out of my comfort zone as much as I have this past week, and I've never learned as much about myself as I have being here. Nothing could have prepared me for it, either. It was my decision to be who I need to be for her and I'm eternally grateful that she is the one I became that person for.
That's what's going through my mind while I'm on my way to pick her up for our day together.
The elevator doors open to her floor and I make my way to her room, knocking on the door when I get there. It doesn't take long for her to answer the door, and when she does she has the same bright smile on her face as she does every time we're together. The smile I now live to see.
"Hey, Styles," she says, her smile still glowing on her face, which causes me to smile with her. She looks up and down, taking in my outfit. I'm wearing a plain light gray t-shirt and pink sparkly glitter swim shorts, per Aden's request. "Nice shorts."
"Aden wanted me to wear them today and I can't say no to her," I explain. Not that I don't want her to think I picked them out on my own, but I don't want her to question my choices. For some reason I feel the need to earn her approval with everything I do. "Do you need to say goodbye to Mr. Beckett for we go, sweet girl?" I add, knowing her routine by now.
"You know you don't have to call him Mr. Beckett around me, right?" she giggles. "But, yes. I want to, so you can come in if you'd like. And that's very sweet of you," she pauses, "You rock those, by the way." She points towards my shorts and looks down at them so I know what she's talking about.
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hibiscus || h.s.
FanfictionLennon Carter is a single mom of a 3-year-old son, Beckett. Harry Styles is a single dad of a 2-year-old son, Arlo, and a 4-year-old daughter, Aden. They both decide to take their kids on a family vacation to Hawaii. When they cross paths Lennon can...