LOVE LANGUAGE: EN- BOOK 1: SUNGHOON (OLD)

58: Maybe

Sunghoon POV

I told her. I told her about my traineeship and what that intels. She was silent. She was silent the whole ride and when we got inside she went straight to her room, locking her door. Im sad and all I want is to be close and up under her. I want to hold, feel and kiss her. But I was alone in a room that wasn't mine. She doesn't come out the rest of the day so I text her.

Girlfriend

Babe?
Your dad made dinner
Come eat with us
I'm really sorry for not telling you sooner
I just didn't want to break our promise.
Angel?
Won't you respond?
I miss you, it's so cold.
Hoonie misses his baby!!
Won't you come see me?
Are you a sleep?
I need to talk to you, babe
seen

All she did was leave me on seen, she's really mad at me. I drop my phone on the floor and shower to pass the time. When I come out and dress I check my phone looking for a reply if any but she didn't respond to me.

I need to talk to her further to explain myself but I can't because she won't talk to me at all. I turn my phone off with sadness and force myself to sleep. I will try tomorrow when we go back home.

The Next Day

I wake up very much alone again and pack my things. Out in the living room Angel and her dad are waiting on me. "In time you'll get over it and maybe in the future everything will be okay" Mr. Reid tells Angel, who sat with a blank face and kisses her forehead.

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Once her dad drives off we enter the airport "Babe? I need to talk to you, can we please?" She looks at me with tired eyes "We'll talk later, I'm tired, Sunghoon oppa" she says before going to the boarding area. I realize she didn't respond with a term of endearment but she called me by my real name.

15 hours and 38 minutes later

My mom picks us up, she notices Angel's expression and doesn't ask questions but if she only knew that I was the cause of that expression she's wearing she'd be disappointed in me.

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"I'm gonna go and close up my shop, I'll come back later" my mom says before leaving again. Angel sits on the couch saying nothing so I approach her. "Angel, babe, I'm really sorry. I was going to tell you but I was just to scared" I started.

"Were you going to tell me before I went to see my mom?" She asks looking at me so I look down to avoid eye contact "What were you scared of?" "I was gonna tell you but I was scared of that you would be upset and sad. I didn't think that I was going to have to move" I say quietly.

"So... you thought that I was going to be mad at you because you were going after something you want in life?" I look at her confused "That's not what I said~" she cuts me off. "That is. You thought I'd get upset because you want to be an idol and had to go far away to do it. Do you feel that I'm holding you back?"

Her eyes start watering up as I shake my head. "No that's not~ that's not what I mean" "Then what do you mean Park Sunghoon?! How could you think of me that way? Is that the kind of person you think I am?" I was now crying also she wouldn't hear me out.

"What have I done for you to not trust me?" "Nothing... b-but I promised to~" I try to hug her but she moves away from me. "Who else knows?" She asks but I don't respond right away, saying everything aloud sounds terrible. "Sanbin and my mom" I say to silence when I look up to peak at her she has a blank expression before she says something.

"For some reason, I can't get you to trust me or tell me anything to do with you..." she starts "So... maybe... we take a break, Sunghoon oppa" "Why do you keep calling me that?!" I asks looking at her. "Maybe it'll be easier for you to keep going if I'm not in your way. Maybe we should... break up" she finally says and I immediately reject the idea.

"No, I don't want to break up with you!" I tell her "You can't break up with me! I won't let you" I cry but she doesn't look at me and stands up to leave. I block her "Angel. Angel, look at me" "Move, Park Sunghoon. I'm leaving. Please move!" She tries to get around me but fails when I hug her.

"You have to let me fix this, Angel. I won't let you go like this" "It's too late. You forgot the promise that you made to me and broke" she says "You promise to tell me more things but you're hiding from me again" she cries as I remember our conversation.

"I promise that I'll start communicating with you from now on. I won't keep stuff from you, I'll tell you everything, just please stop ignoring me" I beg her, I couldn't take it anymore. I needed my Angel back. "Promise?" I nod and hug her.

I remember that I completely forgot about this promise. While I was busy trying not to break one promise, I ended up breaking two instead. "Angel... I~" "Bye Park Sunghoon" she left and this time I let her. My knees gave out on me and fell to the ground crying my eyes out. I miss her and I want to hold her, but I've lost her.

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Later mom walks in to me, I haven't moved or anything at all since Angel left. "Hey~ Sunghoon~ah?... where's Angel?!" I start crying again harder, louder and heavier then before. Mom drops her bags and consoles me. "What happened? Why are you crying?" I was trying to explain but I couldn't get the words out and kept choking up. I messed up.