Xamarah's POV:
With heavy thoughts and feelings I tried and tried to fall asleep, I need energy for tomorrow's class but I guess it will not end up that way anyway.
I keep looking at the ceiling thinking of what she said before she left the house, I don't want to assume things as I don't get over those things and just keep overthinking about it. As much as I want to forget it and think about something else that can help me forget it, I just can't.
Just how in the world can I stop overthinking things I am not suppose to think about.
I am just her....slave yet I am here in her bed overthinking those things she said.
I need to loosen this even a bit.
mleona:
Just take what
The maids cook
For your breakfast
mleona:
Can't drive you
To school for now
Message nito saakin sa instagram pagkabukas nang pagkabukas ko.
I sighed and look at the clock.
It's quarter to 5 in the morning and I barely get any sleep. I will just freshen up for a minute.
I went to the closet and get the clothes I needed for.
I took a shower for a minute and went downstairs to eat the breakfast with my Mother.
Binilisan ko na lang rin kumain kahit wla akong gana, to be honest halos wala akong kinain. Kung tumingin si ma kunwari namana kong ngumunguya kahit wala namang kinakain.
Inaayos ko na lang ang lahat ng dadalhin ko bago pumunta sa Unibersidad.
"Anak" pukal sa atensyon sakin ni mama.
Napatigil ako sa pag ayos at napa buntong hingang tumingin sakanya dala dala ang halo halong nararamdaman ko.
"Po?"
Hinawi niya ang i-ilang hibla ng buhok na humaharang sa aking mukha at ngumiti na kay tamis saakin.
"Kung mayroon kang problema 'nak nandito lamang ang iyon ina ha, wag mo isosolo ang sarili mong problema"
Tumango ako at hinalikan na siya sa pisngi para maka alis na at makapunta na rin sa Unibersidad.
Naka punta na ako at dumiretso na sa unang subject sa ngayong umaga, hindi ko man lang kaya pakinggan ang sinasabi ng prof na kasalukuyan nag tuturo sa harapan ng dahil na rin sa ibat ibang iniisip at ang naguguluhang damdamin na dala dala ngayon.
Bakit ba kasi ganun na lang ako maka overthink ni hindi ko man lang alam kung bakit dapat ko pa isipin mga bagay na ito in the first place.
Natapos ang klase na wala man lamang ako na intindihan ni isa.
"Class dismissed, Miss Alfonso stay" awtoridad na sabi ni Ma'am Denziel that made me stop from walking awat from this class.
"Yes Ma'am?" Takot ko naman na sabi rito. Isa rin kasi siya sa terror na propesora sa Unibersidad na ito kung saan tinatakutan siya ng mga studyante at parang wala nga tong kaibigan dahil na rin sa ugali na mayroon ito.
Ngunit rinig ko nga na may issue si Ma'am Denziel sa isang Model na di ko naman alam kung sino pero basta narinig ko lang na isang model ang napa issue sakanya kung saan sila ay sinasabing naga-date.
Di lang namin ma wari kung totooo hindi dahil na rin sa hindi naman siya nagsasalita tungkol doon.
"If you are going to my class be sure you are all focus on it, not on unpleasant thoughts you should be bothering with." She said with authority as she fix her things that made me sweat from my forehead down to my cheeks.
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My Master
Dragoste(ON GOING) Xamarah Lavy Alfonso a graduating student. She is a scholar student so she doesnt need to pay for her school though she cant pay her financial needs especially with her mother's needs. She also has lots of debts into different people she...
