Perhaps Love

Chapter 21

We reached to a Café Resto near in our Apartment. Hestia said it's Maica who suggested where we met, she said it'll be better to be near at home. Why does she have to be like this? She should be hating me right now.

"She'll be here in a minute. She's just looking for a parking space." Hestia told me once we reached to our table. I sat down beside her. I'm so nervous right now. I don't know what I'll do or say to her.

Hestia suddenly hold my hand. "Hey, it'll be okay. Don't stress yourself, think about my Godchild, okay?" I smiled at her, of course she'll be the Godmother of my child. I nodded.

I saw someone walks in, it's her, Maica she look around searching for us,

"Maics here." Hestia shout. Maica she turned her head to where we are. She smiled.

I'm looking at her while she's walking toward our direction. Can't help but to feel ashamed. I look away.

"Hi Hestia." Hestia stood up and kiss Maica on her cheek. I also stood up and greet her.

"Hi Fran." Instead of kissing me on the cheek. She hugged me. I was shocked.

"Hi Maica." I said in a low voice. I couldn't look at her eyes. We all sit down and ordered food.

"Excuse for a while. I'll go get this call." Hestia said as her phone keeps on ringing.

When she left, I felt like I can't breathe. I really couldn't look at her and I don't know what to say to her. I sighed it's now or never Fran.

"I," I started but she also speak "How," She smiled, "you first."

"Maica, I want you to know that I never meant this thing to happen. I never have imagined I will be in this situation." I felt like I'm about to cry.

She holds my hand that I placed on our table. "Shhhhh, don't tortue yourself. Please I am not a villain here." She laughed.

"Fran, when I saw you that day. I am so afraid. I don't know what to do. Then we brought you to the Hospital. All of us were there. I know how good a person you are. Well none of us won't be there if you're not. I saw how all of us got worried about you." She sighed.

"When the doctor said, what happened to you and the reason behind that? Honestly I am happy and worried at the same time. Then Dylan just burst out his anger to Sven. I knew something had happened between the two of you. I'm not prepared. I was shocked and to be honest I got hurt." I can see the pain on her eyes.

"I'm sorry." I apologized. "I really am. F*** that alcohol." I cursed.

"Shhhh, what done is done, Okay? I don't know why, but I didn't get angry with the two of you. I got hurt to be honest. But I can't get myself to be angry, I'm not sugar-coating what happened. It just that we we're on a split that time I guessed. It's also my fault I hurt him that time. Suddenly I've asked him for a split. To give me a space. I am not ready to settle down Fran. Not with him."

I furrowed my eyebrows, what did she say? Not with him? What's the meaning of that? I asked myself, suddenly she looks at me, like she knows what I am thinking.

"I know Fran. Not with him, I mean I can't see myself settling down with him. I do love him. I told to myself maybe I'm just confused. So I tried to get back to him. When he came to my house a week ago. He told me let's try again. He'll do anything to make our relationship work again. And trust me I tried. And this thing happened." She sighed. Looking at me intently.

"I love him Fran. But that doesn't enough for us to stay together. So I am giving him away. I'm letting go of him. I want him to do the duty of being a father to your child. I told him this. But he just keeps on pestering me." She chuckled.

She holds my hand again. "I know you cared for him, I can feel and see it in your eyes Fran. I know you're thinking why I am like this? Why I'm giving away my boyfriend?" She laughed.

"I am not as good as you thought I am Fran. I've done mistakes too. And for that, I don't deserve him. He deserves someone better Fran. I know you two were not getting along, but won't you think it'll not happened if the two of you are not really into each other?"

I was shocked, what the? Is this for real? Does she really knows what she's saying right now?

"Come on Maica, it's not what you think. It's only because of the alcohol." I sighed. Where the f*** is Hestia right now? I look around and saw her still on the phone.

"Fran," She's staring at me.

"Oh please Maica, I never expect you'll say these things to me. I expected you'll be so angry at me. You'll tell me stay away from you and from Sven. You love Sven so you'll not giving him up. But, Oh my God! I don't know what you're saying right now. You make me so confused." I complained to her.

She just smiled at me. What's wrong with this woman? I asked myself.

"Probably you're thinking I am crazy right now. Well I guess I am Fran. I want you to be happy. I want him to be happy. He won't be happy with me. Both of us are boring together. We're just too perfect to each other that, I felt like I'm not growing. He is same, he's still the same. But I felt something when you're around. I can't explain but it's really different. Plus you two will have a baby soon."

I chuckled. "You're unbelievable Maica. Really, I can't believe this words are coming out of your mouth." I shook my head.

She smiled. "Well, let's say," she sighed. "He'll hate me soon. That's why I am glad that this thing happened between the two of you is a way of avoiding him to get hurt more because of me. At least I know he will be with a person like you"

I smirked, "Oh come on Maica! He won't be happy with me I know, he loves you so much. Probably he hate me now." And that hurts me a lot. I just said that last sentence to me.

"No he won't, I know him."

"What have you done Maica?" I asked her, she just looks at me and she's about to answer but Hestia came back.

"Sorry. What were you guys talking about now?" she asked as she seated beside me. I look at Maica, she just smiled at me.

"Nothing dear. I am telling to your sister, how happy I am and she shouldn't think too much." I am so confused.