Perhaps Love

Chapter 15

We reached at the front of my building. Dylan got out first and I'm about to go out when Sven speak,

"Dylan, can I have a minute with Fran?"

Dylan looks shocked and I also. I'm staring at him and I can explain what I feel right now.

"Of course, I'll go first then. Probably Brenda is there right Fran?" Dylan asked me.

"Brenda?" Sven asked me.

"She's my roommate and our friend." I answered. He just nod.

"Thank you, Sven, for the ride." Dylan said, "See you, Fran." He smiled and winked at me.

We just stayed in the car. Silence after Dylan left us. It's almost 5minutes past and none of us start to talk. I sighed.

"How are you?" He asked me without even looking at me. He's eyes were just on the road. Leaning his back on his seat.

"I'm okay." I answered. Am I really, ok? I asked myself.

"I'm sorry for what happened a while ago in the Pub. It's just that Steven can really be annoying sometime."

"It's fine. I'm already used to him." I smiled at me when he looks at my direction.

"Hmmmmm, why you left that day without waking me up?"

I can't find the right words to say, I can't believe we will talk about it. God!

"I was in a hurry and I saw you were sleeping peacefully so I couldn't bear to wake you up." Liar! My other mind said.

He nodded. "I'll be straight Fran. What happened that night, was not supposed to happen, we both know that. And I should have control myself. I shouldn't let my emotion be in control that night."

Why I feel hurt with the way he's saying these things to me. I feel like tears will fall down from my eyes. I control myself.

"I," he continues, "I regret what happened to us that night. It's a big mistake. And I hope it will be between us. I don't want anyone to found out that. Especially Maica. I love her Fran, we just got back together. And I can't lose her again. Never"

Oh God! This really hurts. Calm yourself. I sighed.

"You don't have to worry Sven," I told him without looking at him.

"I will never tell anyone about that night. Just like what you said, it's a big mistake. I should also control myself that night." I smirked. "That's what I get from letting myself drunk I guessed." I removed the seat belt from me.

"Let's just pretend that night didn't happen at all. And I'll promise you I won't tell to anyone." I opened the car door.

"Thank you, Sven. Bye." And got out from his car. I walk without looking back. I heard his car engine start. And I just saw him pass by.

My tears that I had been holding back flowed down to my cheeks.

Why am I hurting? I shouldn't be. Did I just fall in love with that guy? Why? He's just someone whom I used to admire before I even knew he's the brother of my sister's boyfriend. Why? Everything he said it like a knife slashing my heart.

I hold my chest; I stop for a while. I composed myself before going in to our building.

Stop this nonsense, Fran. I told myself.

Stop this or else you'll end up hurting yourself.

I reached at the front of my apartment. I still can't think. I'm trembling. What's going on with you Fran. I sighed before opening the door.

I got inside of my apartment, I felt like someone is looking at me. And I turn around. I tap my forehead. I almost forgot Dylan is here. Not just one pair of eyes are looking at me, it's two pair of eyes. Brenda and Dylan. Oh, Fran be ready. I warned myself.

"Oh, you started drinking without me huh?" I sat down beside Brenda.

Dylan stared at me, "Did you cry?" he asked. I avoided meeting his gaze. I drink the beer. And pretend I didn't hear what he said.

Brenda grabbed my arm and let me faced her. "Seriously, Fran? What's going on with you? I mean with you two?"

Dylan sips his drink, "Told you we'll grill you tonight until you spill everything out to us." He smirked.

I don't know what to say, tears fall down on my cheeks and I started to cry.

"Oh, My!" Brenda exclaimed and hugged me. "You know you can share everything to us, right? Don't hide it, the more you hide it the more it can be painful and it's a heavy feeling Fran. Me, Dylan and of course you sister, we're always here for you. To listen to you."

"I second the motion." Dylan said and sat beside me, tap my head. "Why did you even call us your friend when you're not sharing anything to us?"

Brenda is caressing my hair while head is on her shoulder. "Can you please change the song. It's hurting me."

"The song or Sven?" Dylan asked.

I throw a pillow to him. "Shut up! And why Sven's name came out here?" I tried to pretend that he's not the reason why I'm feeling like this.

"Kwaynto mo se pegong." Dylan told me; I can't help but smiled. It's 'Kwento mo sa pagong' (tell the story to the turtle) It's a Filipino saying if you want to be sarcastic or you want to teased someone who's telling lie. I used to tell that to him if I want to teased him.

"Come on Fran, we're not stupid, okay?" Brenda told me and drink her beer.

"So, spill it out. Hmmmmmm or would you let me narrate what I thought about?" Brenda told me.

"I like it, go Bren." Dylan said with a soft voice like a lady. Sometimes this guy can't help to show his soft side especially if it's gossips. I shake my head.

"Bren, you being a novelist, have a lot of imagination." I said while wiping my tears.

"Oh, come on, what I thought when I saw you coming home that morning wearing a man's shirt is not an imagination Fran."

"Holy, Mother of God!" Dylan exclaimed, "this is a kind of revelation. It's really a good idea I decided to come here. Hmmmmm so who's shirt it is Fran?"

"Sven." Brenda answered. I was shocked. She said it with a dot. As in dot. Not a question mark.

"What the?" Dylan said. "Are you serious?" suddenly he drinks all his beer and opened one more. "This is more exciting!"

I look at Brenda and asked, "how sure are you that it's Sven's shirt?"

She drinks and smiled at me. "Well, you didn't lock your door when you reached here that morning. You were in the shower the time I entered your room because I was about to borrow your laptop, then while I was looking for your laptop your phone was ringing." She stops and drink again.

"Bren, don't let us hanging." Dylan said.

"Crazy! So, it kept ringing I also called you so many times but you were not responding so I was really not supposed to care but when I saw who is it. Whoa curiosity attacked me." She chuckled.

"I love you for that Bren." Dylan said while laughing and drinks again.

"Iwww Dy, we're not in the same page." Brenda joked.

"Jerk!" Dylan throws a pillow on her. I was just listening. "Continue Girl! Who was that? Hmmmmm don't tell its Sven?" his eyes got bigger. When Brenda nodded as an answered to his question. Dylan exclaimed. "Ohhhhh My God!"